woooow
so wow, it's so weird how when somthing new comes along...you completely forget about something old.....this is myspace and livejournal i'm kinda talking about. when myspace came along.....i never used livejournal and for some reason i was just thinking of old things and this popped into my head.....it's kind of like my life, i have this person in my life....whom i NEED to forget about and for some reason i can't....but when somebody neeew comes along, he's gone in a second. as long as i keep myself occupied i'm fine, but as soon as i am left with nothing accept to sit there and think about pointless shit in my life...WOW hey there he is....again.....in my head....and i freakin hate it......i don't wanna sound all like snotty or self centered or anything, but why can't anything ever just go my way???? everyone's lives seem to be pulling together, but mine....mine is left still wondering in god knows where and i can't seem to find it. i need a miracle, i need someone in my life right now to help me pull this together, i knoww ppl say "u don't need boys to make u happy"...but right now, i do. i need a guy in my life that will treat me good and be nice and caring and tell me how much he cares about me and al that kinda stuff. i need someone to help me find me. i need to stop thinking about dan EDIT.... i've completely thrown my life away for some ass hole who even tho says doesn't care about me, i know he does b/c he's said so.....i've spent the last year and a half almost.... crying over, doing over, yelling over, sticking up for over and oooover again, and i'm gonna do it the rest my life i know, but i need to stop having these feelings for him.
Derek Fabean was my hero friday night....he said some of the nicest things to me, that anybody has ever said before, and he tried to tell me i don't need dan, just like everyone else...and it didn't sink in at first...but as he went on, something about how and what he said just clicked......and idk, maybe it will work....now i'm left with the problem that i really like him again...i have not even .00000000000001% of a chance with him b/c i knoooow he doesn't like me....i'm either not pretty or good enough or w/e else anybody else has said.....so whooo knows, if this keeps up...i'm gonna have to seriously go to therapy or something to help me with my emotionally unstable self........
Derek Fabean was my hero friday night....he said some of the nicest things to me, that anybody has ever said before, and he tried to tell me i don't need dan, just like everyone else...and it didn't sink in at first...but as he went on, something about how and what he said just clicked......and idk, maybe it will work....now i'm left with the problem that i really like him again...i have not even .00000000000001% of a chance with him b/c i knoooow he doesn't like me....i'm either not pretty or good enough or w/e else anybody else has said.....so whooo knows, if this keeps up...i'm gonna have to seriously go to therapy or something to help me with my emotionally unstable self........