why?

[mygoodluckcharm]

somebody save me......i feel like i'm living a lie.....i'm not happy, no matter how happy i look...i'm NOT....i try to be happy for everyone else, but really...............................I'M DYING INSIDE. Literally....i seriously think i'm like manic-depressive or whatever it's called. GOSH, i just don't understand why this has to be so gosh darn difficult...........WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????????????????????????????? YOU want EVERYTHING....but YOU have NO IDEA what you WANT......now that might not make sense to everyone....but there are some ppl who know what i'm trying to say.....you don't understand what your putting me through....."your not the only one with problems" YEAH...thank you i know, you have enough problems for the both of us....i wish you would just TALK to me about it.....just talk, thats ALL i ask. talking doesn't do any damage if it's something that NEEDS to be said....and you know that we BOTH have things that we need to say to each other....you might not think your doing anything to hurt me...but you do....these last eight months have been literally a LIVING HELL for me.......i don't know what to do anymore...i....i just DON'T KNOW, i can't handle it.......why is that boys think that breaking up with a girl solves EVERYTHING??? huh??? b/c it DOESN'T....NOT AT ALL...there is such a thing as talking....ever hear of that?? if you have a problem with your gf/bf, you don't just break it off, you LET THEM KNOW that it's bothering you, and trust me....they will work hard to change...or at least i would have....i would have done ANYTHING for you...ok? ANYTHING. And you threw it all away. why? i just, i don't even know what else to say...i'm so frusterated, i'm sad, i'm mad, i'm.........aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah i don't even know WHO or WHAT i am anymore.....or why i'm even still here....b/c i don't want to be here without YOU.....i can't LIVE WITHOUT YOU.......why? whats the point of me being here? somebody please answer me this...b/c i lost my reasons a LONG time ago.....i can't even see straight anymore.................i feel lonely...and this world is too big to feel that way.........ughhhhhh. W/E i'm done being a baby for tonight........sorry everyone

sooo this is me trying to be happy...

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