Just love me!
Wow 2nd entry of the day, I cant help it, im having such a bad day. "Im so sick so sick of being sick" Gosh! My mom upset me so much tonight, just little things, like when I was trying ot drive home today, turn on ur light (I always forget....) put ur blinker on (duh, i know) "whats wrong with u?" "what r u doing" (trying to drive and break) do u se how close u r to the pole (wel duh what do u think im trying to do (strieghten out!!!)) and that was all in like a 5 min. time, its not the things she said, it was that she was making me feel really stupid, I couldnt take it any more I just put on the break and crawld out of the car, I started crying, my nieghbors were there, Chris's mom gave me a hug, I feel like im over reacting, but im not, I wish I had someone that believed in me, Im so sick of crying, I want some support at home, just someone to be there, I wanna be able to talk to someone every night about how I feel, and who want to listen and be there for me, I dont know what else to do or what to say, should I move far away, start over, become a nun, so that way God wil always be there, no outside distractions, ill always have sister around me, to listen to me, and somewere to live! Im only 17 why am I going through this? I make a promise "to never abandon my kids, to always let them know im there for them" Im sry to any of my friends, if I have ever been ruse to u, or u ever felt like u werent important, or I didnt put u first, or have made u feel sad. well im done