tears

[myfutureself]

one tear for every day we were together.
one tear for every second we were apart.
one tear for every hurtful word I spoke to you.
one tear for every kiss I received from you.
one tear for every smile I gave to you,
that only you can get out of me.
one tear for every word left unspoken,
especially in this argument that ended it.
one tear for every time I said I love you
and one for every time I pretended like I didn't care.
one tear for every time over the last few days
you heard what I said, except it was something else:
something mangled, something evil
instead of a plea for you to listen.
A plea for you to understand
that I do have feelings and I do love you.
A plea for you to see
that I will go to the end of the earth for you.