meh..

[myfutureself]

you seem so distant lately
so far away
even as I stare in your eyes
it's like youre with someone else
how long has it really been
since we've been together
how long has it really been
since I felt you complete me
have I not shown you that I love you enough?
have I not made you feel wanted enough?
if only I knew what I was doing wrong
I could try to stitch myself to be what you want
why does it feel like my life is passing by
and I am waving from the distance
why does it feel like my heart is stopping
and the doctors are pronouncing me dead
sometimes I wish I could change my name
and be somebody else
just so that you want me
lately I feel like I'm failing you
and your ship is sailing away
am I really being submerged?
it's hard to breathe in here
my hopes are rising to the surface
but I have a brick tied to my legs