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im in my room
hear my rents talking
and the things they were saying... were just horrible
and its all my fault, haha, whats new?
cause YOU know, im a FUCK UP
im the reason why they got married
im the reason why they never got divorced when it was bad
my mom had hope, she believed in something that wasnt there
and then they start talking about my suicidal problems
but no! i wanna die because im 16 and i dont fit in!
wtf! since when do i care about that!
im happy with my outside life most of the time
yea, i wish i could talk, but whatever
i actually fee sorry for my mom
she never went to her senior prom because he didnt want to go
she regrets not going now, and she wants me to go to mine
after their wedding they didnt even have a reception
and they never went on a honeymoon
because he didnt want to
all what i can think about right now is my past
and how i misjudged everything
and i hated my mom and fell into my dads trap
i was pretty much brain washed
how could you do that to an inocent kid???
just why??? i need answers
i cant wait for another 730 days
so i can get away from all of this
move away from everything
and forget everything
and start a new life
gah, i have to shut up now