come on heat it up. i'm down.

[myfirstmistress]

i really need to start updating.
my life is always sooooo juicy.
seriously.

so i realized i was in love with khail.
cause he has just been there for so long.
and we have really bonded.
and we talked about being a couple.
which i think we are.
hahahahahahah.
yeah.
and then there's kevin...
and he's so cute.
seriously ladies, these guys...
i'm jealous of myself right now.
and kevin likes me.
we stay up all night talking.
like the other night he called me at one in the morning and we didn't hang up until nine am.
and i had to work that day at noon so i didn't sleep.
and we bonded like crazy too.

it's insane.
what is a girl to do?

i'm thinking if i love khail then kevin shouldn't be an issue.
but khail is so... uncertain. and shaky.
i really hurt him when i told him i didn't wanna be with him and he really tried to convince me to stay.
so much in fact he showed up at my house with my parents home.
and he locked his keys inside his car.
hahahah, that was the best night ever...
and he definitely has his sweet moments. NOT TO MENTION HE IS GORGEOUS.
but seriously i need him to straight up commit.
ive dated him for the last year and a half.
im done with that.

so i guess we'll see what happens.
dont worry... ill tell you my fairy tale happy ending :)