always tired
i've been so tired lately. i feel so lazy, well i am and yet i'm so tired. i never go to school... well i do i just never go to the 2 classes that matter. i'm proably failing. i need to go. i just want to drop my 0. it's pointless. i don't need the extra credits. i hate school rules. i think i'm going to do some make up work. i didn't go to the classes today cause i was with my friend jennie at the dmv. but tomorrow will be a full day of school. i promise! i go back to work tomorrow so thats much better. i'll stop being lazy and just become too busy. me and codi went to see passion of christ yesterday. it was my second time. i cryed. again. way too depressing. went out with brandon on sunday to tracies new casa and watched the oscars and played pool. it was fun. went home soon after they ended. got home at about 930 which is extreamly early for me. i kinda wanted to go to brandons house and fall asleep with him but we thought it would be wise if we both just went home cause we both don't get asleep. i'm starting to get restless i need to just live with brandon. we need to be married and happy together. i'm tired of going to different places at night and not getting to spend every second with him. i want to make him breakfast everymorning and dinner every night. i want to give him back massages after work and make him smile all the time. i want to have a wedding and find my perfect dress. i want sinless sex. i want him to catch me singing while cleaning the house. i want to beable to devote myself entirely to him. i want to send him notes in his lunch bag. i want him to rub my feet so i can fall asleep eaiser and hold me close when i have a nightmare. i need to be able to take care of him when he's sick. i need to be ther for him for his every hurt. i can't wait to be married.
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