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Feeling kind of frustrated today. No, frustrated isn't the word. Torn, maybe. Heather and I talked about going to Six Flags this weekend so we could finally get the season passes our best friends bought for us and not let their money go to waste. Since we decided to do that I hadn't really thought about the decision; I want to go, so we're going. Except now I'm like...should I really?
I told Heater last night that I probably shouldn't go and she, understandably, got frustrated and said she'll just have to go with Jess then. Which, without saying as much out loud, implied I would have to tag along so I could watch one or both of the kids while they went on the fun rides. And honestly, that really bothered me. I feel like I'm being super selfish by saying I don't want to go and be the babysitter while you guys ride the rides I'm not supposed to ride anymore because I know there's other stuff we can do there all together. But that just paints a really, really sucky day for me. I'm sorry, it does. And I get Heather's point of view, honestly I do. It sucks all around. She suggested we go and not ride the roller coasters but every time we have ever gone to Six Flags, first time excluded, that is the only reason we've gone. Expressly to ride the big rides. So kind of what's the point? Then she mentioned the three of us and the kids could go and none of us ride the big rides which, okay, but...I don't know. That's really not fair either.
So I did a little research last night and read a bunch of articles, comments on forums, a lot of stuff about people with PVC and thrill rides. The general consensus was that it's not a big deal. PVC isn't even technically a heart condition - so said my doctor and that still...how is it not? The heart is beating irregularly! Does that mean it's a foot condition? I don't...what? - and I've had this pulmonary aneurysm for I don't know how many years and I've gone on coasters as often as I can. So I figured, screw it, let's go. That new ride is calling me! Then I research people with high blood pressure and thrill rides and basically read everywhere, "Don't do it. You'll die."
I understand the science behind it all, I do. I learned more about heart rates, blood pressure, adrenaline and such from my research last night than I have in all my years of heart problems. There were several people who said their doctors told them as long as they're on medication and the BP is under control then they should be fine. Just don't get off a ride and hop back on. Okay, I can do that. Especially since our rides are all across the park so I'd have some walking to do between rides anyway. :D
I know the common sense idea would be to just call my doctor and ask her but this is the same doctor who took over a week to call my pharmacy back about a medication she wanted me to start taking the day she gave me the script. My chances of hearing back from her are pretty darn slim. At this moment I feel like we should go, Heather and I, and just kind of take it slow to feel things out. We can start on Batman because, out of all the coasters I love, that's probably the tamest. Then if I end up feeling off or whatever I'll still have been able to go on one of my favorite rides. Yep. That is my decision.
Now I'm going to turn off internet on Eugene and get to work on Harbinger. I have two, maybe three chapters left and I really want to complete one today. I always get like this toward the end of a project. It's almost done so let's be done with it. I just have to be careful not to rush anything.
I told Heater last night that I probably shouldn't go and she, understandably, got frustrated and said she'll just have to go with Jess then. Which, without saying as much out loud, implied I would have to tag along so I could watch one or both of the kids while they went on the fun rides. And honestly, that really bothered me. I feel like I'm being super selfish by saying I don't want to go and be the babysitter while you guys ride the rides I'm not supposed to ride anymore because I know there's other stuff we can do there all together. But that just paints a really, really sucky day for me. I'm sorry, it does. And I get Heather's point of view, honestly I do. It sucks all around. She suggested we go and not ride the roller coasters but every time we have ever gone to Six Flags, first time excluded, that is the only reason we've gone. Expressly to ride the big rides. So kind of what's the point? Then she mentioned the three of us and the kids could go and none of us ride the big rides which, okay, but...I don't know. That's really not fair either.
So I did a little research last night and read a bunch of articles, comments on forums, a lot of stuff about people with PVC and thrill rides. The general consensus was that it's not a big deal. PVC isn't even technically a heart condition - so said my doctor and that still...how is it not? The heart is beating irregularly! Does that mean it's a foot condition? I don't...what? - and I've had this pulmonary aneurysm for I don't know how many years and I've gone on coasters as often as I can. So I figured, screw it, let's go. That new ride is calling me! Then I research people with high blood pressure and thrill rides and basically read everywhere, "Don't do it. You'll die."
I understand the science behind it all, I do. I learned more about heart rates, blood pressure, adrenaline and such from my research last night than I have in all my years of heart problems. There were several people who said their doctors told them as long as they're on medication and the BP is under control then they should be fine. Just don't get off a ride and hop back on. Okay, I can do that. Especially since our rides are all across the park so I'd have some walking to do between rides anyway. :D
I know the common sense idea would be to just call my doctor and ask her but this is the same doctor who took over a week to call my pharmacy back about a medication she wanted me to start taking the day she gave me the script. My chances of hearing back from her are pretty darn slim. At this moment I feel like we should go, Heather and I, and just kind of take it slow to feel things out. We can start on Batman because, out of all the coasters I love, that's probably the tamest. Then if I end up feeling off or whatever I'll still have been able to go on one of my favorite rides. Yep. That is my decision.
Now I'm going to turn off internet on Eugene and get to work on Harbinger. I have two, maybe three chapters left and I really want to complete one today. I always get like this toward the end of a project. It's almost done so let's be done with it. I just have to be careful not to rush anything.