268 making path to self destruction

[myfavworstnm]

the ultimate reason for what i did or tried to do........ was to see if i was going to feel hurt again. it's amazing how some of us are always so capable of subjecting ourselves to this presumed risk of pain. cos maybe, just maybe, it wldn't hurt anymore. but i guess i shldn't try

i just unreasonably and demandingly wanted to see how much more you can hurt me.