LDR
I miss Ben so much. All of the time.
I think about him all the time.
It's weird tho, sometimes when I'm at USF and he's up there, I can't picture his face.
But, I just wish he was here with me, or we could be somewhere where we could be together.
This is turning out to be a lot harder than I had anticipated. I don't think I even gave very much thought our long distance relationship before we left.
I really love him a lot. And occasionally I worry that he'll lose interest like others have, but that's just me being silly and overanalyzing. I know he loves me too.
These past 3 times I've seen him have been so fun. I love staying with him and sleeping in his bed with him. But they always go by so quickly, and before I know it I'm driving back to Tampa.
And then I don't even like to think about how we're going to have be doing this for the rest of this school year and then the next.
...And then what after that? I feel like I need to talk about it with him, but I don't want it to seem like I'm bringing it up too soon. But it worries me. I just wish he could be here so I could cuddle with him whenever I want, and we could do fun things together and he could just BE THERE and I could touch him and he could touch me and I could look at him and he could look at me.
hah, Why is it that when I finally find someone we have to be separated by hundreds of miles?
I just like to think about the day when we can be in the same zip code together. And then we'll go on an amazing trip to wonderful places :]
"I could go anywhere with you and i'd probably be happy"