One of my favorite activities is daydreaming
what's this? optimism?
hmmm, i don't know. in a way, i'm kind of scared of being optimistic, because i am just so immensely unable to deal with more disappointment. but i can't shake it.
haha, usually people embrace this kind of stuff, and i'm scared. but not fully, that's only that nagging i feel in the pit of my stomach. maybe i just won't think about it, and let things happen.
Oh, so i'm 20 now. i have a love/hate relationship with 20. I like moving forward in my life, and i kind of like the sound of 20. But then, it's like ok there is no going back now; from here on out things just get more and more real. which i'm excited for, but at the same time...
plus, i'm not a teenager anymore! wow, that 7 year span of my life is over. I have been alive for 2 decades.
that moment with my dad before i left for school was unreal. i love him, and his emotional nature.
all i know is, i am SO glad i went home for winter break. i don't know how things would have turned out now if i had not, i agree with karl.
For the time being, I make my own happiness!
and hanging out with alicia this past weekend was awesome! she's great.
spring '09: time to investigate what to do with my life...
p.s. - i don't care if alot of psych people are crazy/eccentric/have problems themselves...who doesn't? i'm still game for it!
hmmm, i don't know. in a way, i'm kind of scared of being optimistic, because i am just so immensely unable to deal with more disappointment. but i can't shake it.
haha, usually people embrace this kind of stuff, and i'm scared. but not fully, that's only that nagging i feel in the pit of my stomach. maybe i just won't think about it, and let things happen.
Oh, so i'm 20 now. i have a love/hate relationship with 20. I like moving forward in my life, and i kind of like the sound of 20. But then, it's like ok there is no going back now; from here on out things just get more and more real. which i'm excited for, but at the same time...
plus, i'm not a teenager anymore! wow, that 7 year span of my life is over. I have been alive for 2 decades.
that moment with my dad before i left for school was unreal. i love him, and his emotional nature.
all i know is, i am SO glad i went home for winter break. i don't know how things would have turned out now if i had not, i agree with karl.
For the time being, I make my own happiness!
and hanging out with alicia this past weekend was awesome! she's great.
spring '09: time to investigate what to do with my life...
p.s. - i don't care if alot of psych people are crazy/eccentric/have problems themselves...who doesn't? i'm still game for it!