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very excited about my first Steeler game... ha Im a dork.
me and Jess outside Heinz Field before the game
Monday Night Football!
my first time here
my new desktop background
wave that terrible towel!
black & gold<3
Last night I went to the Monday Night Football game, Pittsburgh Steelers vs. Baltimore Ravens. It was my first Steeler game ever! And the Ravens are like my 3rd least favorite team (after Cleveland and Cincinnati). I went with Jessica, who I used to work with at the Y. Well holy crap it was so packed. I think that was the largest group of people I've ever been in, seriously. (Don't judge me, Im a small town girl!) The first half was worrisome, I was seriously getting annoyed. I honestly could have left, but Im SO glad I didn't - 2 touchdowns were scored within 15 seconds! At the end of the 4th, it was tied 20-20 and went into overtime, but Jeff Reed (<3) kicked us a field goal, winning the game! And we made a friend with a nice, friendly tipsy guy named Scott, lol. He had us cracking up, though I don't think it would be as funny to anyone else so I won't bother elaborating. We didn't get home til like 2:30... and I had to be up at 6. Gah. It was really funny because when overtime began, I got a text from J (my boss, the principal) and he was like "You BETTER be at work in the morning!". I was of course... but wow what day. I barely made it. It wasn't even that I was tired, but I had the worst headache.
And that's another thing. I am so tired of having headaches 6 our of days of the week. And they aren't dull tension headaches. They are debilitating. I dont know what to do for them anymore. I have a migraine prescription (Maxalt) but I only get 9 pills a month - I go through that in two weeks. It is to the point they are ruining the quality of my life - I am SO SICK of constantly being in pain, and being exhausted. There are so many other things I should and would rather be doing, but it makes EVERYTHING so hard - working, schoolwork, spending time with friends, being out and about... I have been trying to ignore it but I can't anymore. Some days I am so tempted to just give up and spend the rest of my life sleeping. I have a great job that I like, but Im so scared Im going to lose it because someday Im just not going to be able to go anymore. And I know feeling awful all the time impedes my work performance. Mike begged me the other night to switch family doctors, go to someone competent, and get all this figured out. Im frustrated with doctors - my family physician is an ass, and Ive tried branching out to get to the root of specific problems (dermatologist for skin, allergist, having my gallbladder out, etc) but no one really does anything for me. Im sick of going to doctor's appointments, spending money on copays and prescriptions, talking about all my issues and medications like an 80 year old woman. Im 25 years old! I should go to the dentist twice a year, the gynecologist once a year, and be done with it! Im also desperately worried that if I confront a doctor about all these, they will tell me it's all in my head, or that I need to eat better and exercise more (which IS true, but I think it's something a little deeper?). I just literally feel like I don't have the strength to do anything. I come home and get into bed everyday. I mean, my days have their stressful points, but working 8 hours should not exhaust me. Gah. I want this to go away.
Speaking of being exhausted.... I currently am. Being out so late last night is probably going to affect me all week, ugh. Good thing they won that game...