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I feel kind of blah. Im WAY burnt from tanning, and tired. And there is some heavy family stuff going on that I'm not going to talk about here. And my sister got a job. Which is actually great. I am so freaking proud of her. I just wish I was more LIKE her. My baby sister is gorgeous and smart and logical and ambitious... all the things I'm not. And now she's getting a job that pays almost twice what I make, getting a new car, a place... She's 5 years younger than me and 5 years ahead of me! Well, not that she's ahead. Im just behind. :( I just feel like a loser. Don't get me wrong though, I'm SO proud of and happy for her. I will probably bawl my eyes out at her graduation next month. She has worked hard, she deserves it. I wish I worked harder and was more focused back in my younger days. I could ramble on about this but I think I am going to just take a short nap before dinner with K&A. And then stuff my face with ice cream.
Ugh I just feel all discombobulated.
Ugh I just feel all discombobulated.