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I figured it was time to update on something at least. Its been forever since i have. Pretty much cuz i wasnt sure what to say.
ILl start off by saying this summer has been absolutely amazing. I have never had more fun with a more random assortment of people inmy life. It was brought so much life back into me. NO crazy drunken parties, no stupid things being done. Just pure aboslutely amazing fun.
It weird how much a person can change in a year. Thast kind of what i feel liek now. IM not the scared, naive person i was. I have realized that i really do have friends. I dont have to run away from everyone and everything. Or more so the fact that i dont want to anymore. FOr the first time i have actually opened up to people. And i finally understand more about myself than ever before.
But yea enough of that. I guess i just need to say that i am truly sorry to everyone. IVe run away from people. Ive stopped talking to alot of people. ANd its not because i dont want to. I just have this horrible fear of opening up to people. I hate how i have turned things out for myself. I feel like ive lost people that i care so much about. And i know i need to change it. I have never in my life really disliked anyone. And i dont really plan on starting that ever.
Anyways i guess i just want to say im sorry. TO everyone ive ever hurt or screwed things up with, I am truly sorry. ANd i would really like to try to make things up.
I amreally really looking forward to seeing everyone whether they be old or new friends this weekend.
I love u all.
ILl start off by saying this summer has been absolutely amazing. I have never had more fun with a more random assortment of people inmy life. It was brought so much life back into me. NO crazy drunken parties, no stupid things being done. Just pure aboslutely amazing fun.
It weird how much a person can change in a year. Thast kind of what i feel liek now. IM not the scared, naive person i was. I have realized that i really do have friends. I dont have to run away from everyone and everything. Or more so the fact that i dont want to anymore. FOr the first time i have actually opened up to people. And i finally understand more about myself than ever before.
But yea enough of that. I guess i just need to say that i am truly sorry to everyone. IVe run away from people. Ive stopped talking to alot of people. ANd its not because i dont want to. I just have this horrible fear of opening up to people. I hate how i have turned things out for myself. I feel like ive lost people that i care so much about. And i know i need to change it. I have never in my life really disliked anyone. And i dont really plan on starting that ever.
Anyways i guess i just want to say im sorry. TO everyone ive ever hurt or screwed things up with, I am truly sorry. ANd i would really like to try to make things up.
I amreally really looking forward to seeing everyone whether they be old or new friends this weekend.
I love u all.