Fuck
Why do things have to change? Why do people have to go their separate ways; subconsciously erasing every fuckin’ memory of one another? Am I the only one who remembers? Am I the only fuckin’ one? Every fuckin’ day I wish for the past to come alive again, just to be with the ones I thought I loved. Well now I say fuck it. I feel like I try so fuckin’ hard. And for what? For someone to fuckin’ blow me off as usual. You want to know what I have been up to. I’ve been fuckin’ sitting in this fuckin’ room going crazy as I think about every fuckin’ one of you.
I have lost everything. It all happened so fast, I have no idea where it started. I cried for the first time in a long while. Yeah I had friends. I went to school. Had a job. Probably had a boyfriend, they all came and went. Now I have a steady boyfriend, no friends, no job, no education, and soon to be born baby. My life has so drastically changed, I do not know what to expect. All I want is to start over somewhere else. I will not be ridiculed by anyone any longer. I have moved on.
I have lost everything. It all happened so fast, I have no idea where it started. I cried for the first time in a long while. Yeah I had friends. I went to school. Had a job. Probably had a boyfriend, they all came and went. Now I have a steady boyfriend, no friends, no job, no education, and soon to be born baby. My life has so drastically changed, I do not know what to expect. All I want is to start over somewhere else. I will not be ridiculed by anyone any longer. I have moved on.