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so passport!! hmm..crazy, hilarious, draining, uplifting, spiritual- for every word, there was a moment to fit it. it was so incredibly random- some times i enjoyed myself so much, sometimes i was so upset i couldn't stop crying- it's hard to sum it up in a short journal entry.
i will say, however, that leaving passport, i felt uplifted- like that feeling in movies where they just know everything's going to be alright. i had my share of fights- one was about a terribly misconstrued comment i had thought was innocuous but was not interpreted the way i meant it to be and the other was a long-running feud over...well, i'm not sure, but i think it had to do with competing within the youth group for the spot as the preppy girl (which i didn't even know i was "fighting" for!)- but i left with both resolved. although i didn't feel particularly religious- even after singing many a christian song, my new favorite being "you are holy"- i felt an extreme...connectedness to the world. *wow, that was new age-y!* it was as if i had gained the skills to communicate more effectively; i knew when to speak up and when to keep my mouth shut. and i especially felt so close to my youth group. singing religious songs under the stars exchanging smiles with your friends will do that to ya, i guess!
on the second to last night, we had communion (all the youth groups did it separately) and we had to take communion to whoever we eanted to- whether it was someone we had grown closer to or someone with whom we felt we needed to reconcile. i think everyone thought it was a bad idea, because "naturally," everyone would take it to their friends. but all the youth really surprised me- they stepped up and they stepped out of their comfort zones. rebecca, one of the newer members and my roomie on the trip, came to me because she felt we had really gotten to know each other. as nervous as i felt in anticipation, i took communion to the girl i mentioned above, the one with whom i had never really gotten along, just to show her i didn't have hard feelings toward her. the way that everyone seemed to share a deep, connected few moments was actually so bittersweet that i cried.
older woman crush awards. songs of soloman. communion (bittersweet). honor camper time (yes! :-P). the l.o.u.d. dance. ultimate frisbee <3. swimming in our clothes. riding home in a van with only boys + me.
^a few highlights
friday- we got back at about 4, but the boys and i decided to stay late to play ultimate for awhile. then i went to a movie with my sister (i hadn't seen her in about 4 months) and spent the night at her place.
sat- we hung out, slept in, tanned at the pool, then went to dinner and a movie with my mom.
sun- church. youth group- it was supposed to be a pool party, but it rained. then i went to see mr. and mrs. smith (again!) with a bunch of people from youth group
today- cdpl. out to lunch. mall to get all my electronics fixed. then peace and rec meeting later.
<3
i will say, however, that leaving passport, i felt uplifted- like that feeling in movies where they just know everything's going to be alright. i had my share of fights- one was about a terribly misconstrued comment i had thought was innocuous but was not interpreted the way i meant it to be and the other was a long-running feud over...well, i'm not sure, but i think it had to do with competing within the youth group for the spot as the preppy girl (which i didn't even know i was "fighting" for!)- but i left with both resolved. although i didn't feel particularly religious- even after singing many a christian song, my new favorite being "you are holy"- i felt an extreme...connectedness to the world. *wow, that was new age-y!* it was as if i had gained the skills to communicate more effectively; i knew when to speak up and when to keep my mouth shut. and i especially felt so close to my youth group. singing religious songs under the stars exchanging smiles with your friends will do that to ya, i guess!
on the second to last night, we had communion (all the youth groups did it separately) and we had to take communion to whoever we eanted to- whether it was someone we had grown closer to or someone with whom we felt we needed to reconcile. i think everyone thought it was a bad idea, because "naturally," everyone would take it to their friends. but all the youth really surprised me- they stepped up and they stepped out of their comfort zones. rebecca, one of the newer members and my roomie on the trip, came to me because she felt we had really gotten to know each other. as nervous as i felt in anticipation, i took communion to the girl i mentioned above, the one with whom i had never really gotten along, just to show her i didn't have hard feelings toward her. the way that everyone seemed to share a deep, connected few moments was actually so bittersweet that i cried.
older woman crush awards. songs of soloman. communion (bittersweet). honor camper time (yes! :-P). the l.o.u.d. dance. ultimate frisbee <3. swimming in our clothes. riding home in a van with only boys + me.
^a few highlights
friday- we got back at about 4, but the boys and i decided to stay late to play ultimate for awhile. then i went to a movie with my sister (i hadn't seen her in about 4 months) and spent the night at her place.
sat- we hung out, slept in, tanned at the pool, then went to dinner and a movie with my mom.
sun- church. youth group- it was supposed to be a pool party, but it rained. then i went to see mr. and mrs. smith (again!) with a bunch of people from youth group
today- cdpl. out to lunch. mall to get all my electronics fixed. then peace and rec meeting later.
<3