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new orleans in two fucking days.
so excited.
just spoke to kyle. he finally found his phone. it's so frustrating because he's so perfect and even though we only spend a couple of days together, it was enough. i hate that things could work out between us if not for geography. i hate that he knew it and he said it too. it would be easier if he tried to fuck me and forget me instead of spending our nights going on adventures and holding hands and talking about how unbelievable perfect we were for each other. if he never said "where did you come from amanda? you're so adorable." and "i dont want to go back to calgary with out you. i dont want to be single." and "everything you say makes me like you more" if he said "you're hot", "you have a nice ass"... it would be so easy to forget. but he wasn't like that. if there weren't pictures of us, i'd seriously convince myself that it was just a really amazing dream.
and it sucks because there are other guys, and i know that even if i fell for one of them and dated one and even if things were peachy i'd drop them in a minute to fly to north western canada.
so excited.
just spoke to kyle. he finally found his phone. it's so frustrating because he's so perfect and even though we only spend a couple of days together, it was enough. i hate that things could work out between us if not for geography. i hate that he knew it and he said it too. it would be easier if he tried to fuck me and forget me instead of spending our nights going on adventures and holding hands and talking about how unbelievable perfect we were for each other. if he never said "where did you come from amanda? you're so adorable." and "i dont want to go back to calgary with out you. i dont want to be single." and "everything you say makes me like you more" if he said "you're hot", "you have a nice ass"... it would be so easy to forget. but he wasn't like that. if there weren't pictures of us, i'd seriously convince myself that it was just a really amazing dream.
and it sucks because there are other guys, and i know that even if i fell for one of them and dated one and even if things were peachy i'd drop them in a minute to fly to north western canada.