Settling Down for the Evening
I am eating dinner right now and its not much. Swiss tofu cheese and pita bread and seaweed/sesame crackers.
I am not too hungry since I ate sushi for lunch at work and I am too busy reflecting on this week so far about all that needs to be done and what I can do to make myself feel more self productive.
I had some issues at work come up that really stressed me out last week. I cried alot and called my parents and talked to some good friends about it. I really considered quitting cause I got angry and felt pretty depressed about stuff but last night I saw things in a whole new light and I am praying that God will see me through with good grace enough to turn things around. Kudos to me for not giving up :).
I want to go back to school. I have been thinking about becoming a preschool teacher or going into the criminal justice field as a forensics expert. I love thinking about these. It excites me to believe that I can do these. I am so busy with work that I don't have time on my own. I work 5 days out of the week from 8:30-5pm and so that only leaves me with Sunday and Thursdays off. I kinda thought about it more yesterday and I decided that when I am 30 in a nother two years from now, I will have decided to go back to school because right now I have to pay bills and make a living but seriously, I am sick of living hand to mouth and not getting my true potential out there and educating myself. It really makes me annoyed :(. Yet I shall prevail and I will do this! I wish Brian and I could talk about it. He is so good at figuring things out and planning things ahead of time. I love this man like there is no end. I seriously if he were to ever be in the position where he needed a heart to go on living and only my heart would do, I would give up all life and breath just to let him live. This is how much I love him. Some of you may roll your eyes and think dear goodness, she has Titanic syndrome but no, I don't. Its just that this is the first time that I have ever loved a man and felt this way.
My mother just called me to say that she was going to bed. She calls because she knows that sometimes I will try to call her and she is two hours ahead of me in Cali. She is my best friend. I love my mommy. She is a trooper and she is a strong willed and smart woman with lots of heart and mind.
Funny thing is that she and my boyfriend are both Tauruses. I love Tauruses. They are so great. I get along with every sign except Gemini, Sagittarus and Leos. Well that is , if they are men who have those signs. All my friends are practically Scorpio, Taurus, Pisces, Aquarius and a few Leos and a few Sags but mostly Tauruses. I am a Capricorn so maybe that says something huh?
Well I think I better stop writing. I am tired. I need to go to bed and stop thinking otherwise I will drive myself nuts.
I hope that Brian gets relief leave from the Gulf. Even though this deployment will boost his military career, I still want him to come home for a little while. He's scheduled to return in July, which is only five months away. I have been with him now for a year and 2 months. Amazing. My first serious successful relationship. I have never had a relationship last past 6 months.
Anyways, good night all and be happy. Rememeber God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit with us and the Angels smile down upon us in heaven. Yes I sound very drippy but I feel good.
God bless you all and God bless AMERICA!
I am not too hungry since I ate sushi for lunch at work and I am too busy reflecting on this week so far about all that needs to be done and what I can do to make myself feel more self productive.
I had some issues at work come up that really stressed me out last week. I cried alot and called my parents and talked to some good friends about it. I really considered quitting cause I got angry and felt pretty depressed about stuff but last night I saw things in a whole new light and I am praying that God will see me through with good grace enough to turn things around. Kudos to me for not giving up :).
I want to go back to school. I have been thinking about becoming a preschool teacher or going into the criminal justice field as a forensics expert. I love thinking about these. It excites me to believe that I can do these. I am so busy with work that I don't have time on my own. I work 5 days out of the week from 8:30-5pm and so that only leaves me with Sunday and Thursdays off. I kinda thought about it more yesterday and I decided that when I am 30 in a nother two years from now, I will have decided to go back to school because right now I have to pay bills and make a living but seriously, I am sick of living hand to mouth and not getting my true potential out there and educating myself. It really makes me annoyed :(. Yet I shall prevail and I will do this! I wish Brian and I could talk about it. He is so good at figuring things out and planning things ahead of time. I love this man like there is no end. I seriously if he were to ever be in the position where he needed a heart to go on living and only my heart would do, I would give up all life and breath just to let him live. This is how much I love him. Some of you may roll your eyes and think dear goodness, she has Titanic syndrome but no, I don't. Its just that this is the first time that I have ever loved a man and felt this way.
My mother just called me to say that she was going to bed. She calls because she knows that sometimes I will try to call her and she is two hours ahead of me in Cali. She is my best friend. I love my mommy. She is a trooper and she is a strong willed and smart woman with lots of heart and mind.
Funny thing is that she and my boyfriend are both Tauruses. I love Tauruses. They are so great. I get along with every sign except Gemini, Sagittarus and Leos. Well that is , if they are men who have those signs. All my friends are practically Scorpio, Taurus, Pisces, Aquarius and a few Leos and a few Sags but mostly Tauruses. I am a Capricorn so maybe that says something huh?
Well I think I better stop writing. I am tired. I need to go to bed and stop thinking otherwise I will drive myself nuts.
I hope that Brian gets relief leave from the Gulf. Even though this deployment will boost his military career, I still want him to come home for a little while. He's scheduled to return in July, which is only five months away. I have been with him now for a year and 2 months. Amazing. My first serious successful relationship. I have never had a relationship last past 6 months.
Anyways, good night all and be happy. Rememeber God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit with us and the Angels smile down upon us in heaven. Yes I sound very drippy but I feel good.
God bless you all and God bless AMERICA!