something on something equals something and thats something

[myeyesareopenx]

Days go by quick. Seems like I open my eyes quickly in the middle of an amazing dream to see endless possibilities and shut them before I even begin to think of where to start. Work feels like a waste of time but brings in nice money. Money that I have no time to spend. Money that gets wasted. Im going to start saving for an extremely nice camera, video camera, and Ibook computer because for some reason my every thought is consumed with sharing with the world how I see it and what goes on inside my head. I dont know why. Thats just how it is and if Im not sharing that I'm unhappy. And those items will help me share. School feels like a waste of time because im taking classes that do not interest me once so ever. I'm going to go to an art school because it will help me express myself to the fullest. I have a problem matching what goes on in my head with my body and reality. I feel sometimes that my thoughts and reality are completely separate. I need to match them up so what I think and imagine in my head gets done and gets created. If not, I'll feel useless like I sometimes feel. Life makes me laugh and cry often. Its rediculous, upredictable and completely predictable at the same time. Its everything. Its good its bad. Its everything between. For everything and idea theres a complete opposite that functions just as well and has followers that support it just as devotedly. This truth makes it hard for me to support anything. All I know is what I think and feel. I think im crazy. I think everyone is crazy but accuses others of being so and thinks theyre not. Life is a video game. Some are good at it. Some really suck at it. But when we all reach game over we'll be in the same place. Where ever that is I cant wait to get there and talk to the game designer. I think that individual is crazy too. Life is absurd and my life goal is to make that obvious to everyone. Im going to art college. Far from here. Soon hopefully. I find it funny how badly I want to succeed in life by expressing whats in my head but I know and want nothing else and im going to die in a very short time so it doesnt matter either way. Good luck kevin and good luck everyone else. See you on the other side. Hopefully.

By the way. If you dont listen to Radiohead I recommend you do. They connect my mind with reality unlike anything else.