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Peanut's sick. Like really really sick. He had a fever last night and early this morning. He only ate 2 bottles yesterday and that was in the morning. . .he even spit that back up. He didn't have a fever this morning, so i took him to daycare, but i'm still worried about him. He only ate a little bit this morning and he kept falling asleep. Even during his bath and that never happens :(
So, what's been going on with me lately? I've been working. I've been trying to make do with everything that i've got, because somehow, i've got these bills that are just now catching up with me from the delivery. it's a couple thousand dollars worth, so needless to say, i've been shit broke. I've been pretty emotionally drained lately. And stressed. I have to be mom and dad but can't seem to find the energy to do that. I've been depressed to the point to where i don't want to do anything, but i know that i have to. I take peanut on walks, to the park, outside to play, and when it's raining i make it fun for him inside. But i don't have that kind of energy. It's like i can feel myself getting weaker and weaker. And having to deal with Mark everyday hasn't necessarily helped me out any either. My car's broke from when they broke into it and it's been 2 months now just about and no ones offered to help me fix it or anything until i can get a new car. not my dad or mark or anyone. It would be bomb ass if i could fix it myself. but i wouldn't even know where to begin.
anyways, i've got to register for college like by the middle of this month which is 10 days away. But i can't do it because i can't afford it nor will i have time to go. i hate this shit. i hate mark.
gah, i'm in a bitchy mood today. i've been taken advantage of at work and i would go find another job, but i won't be able to find one that pays as good as this one does. I dont know. I'll figure something out as always.
I think i'm going to start going to church sunday mornings for the service. I think it may do me some good.
My psychologist broke down and had to move before she went psycho. It's kinda sad that the person i go to for my problems broke down to me. That made me feel odd. It worries me actually. I think i'll just keep things to myself from now on because i may just make another psychologist break down. . .no good.
I'm going shopping with my mom this weekend and the only reason that's even going to be possible is because she's going to be picking me up and i'm spending my gift cards i got for my birthday. I need some new clothes.
Anyways, i'm out. I've got another hour or so before i can go to lunch and i'm really looking forward to that because i need to just sit by myself for a little while.
have a nice weekend everyone : )
So, what's been going on with me lately? I've been working. I've been trying to make do with everything that i've got, because somehow, i've got these bills that are just now catching up with me from the delivery. it's a couple thousand dollars worth, so needless to say, i've been shit broke. I've been pretty emotionally drained lately. And stressed. I have to be mom and dad but can't seem to find the energy to do that. I've been depressed to the point to where i don't want to do anything, but i know that i have to. I take peanut on walks, to the park, outside to play, and when it's raining i make it fun for him inside. But i don't have that kind of energy. It's like i can feel myself getting weaker and weaker. And having to deal with Mark everyday hasn't necessarily helped me out any either. My car's broke from when they broke into it and it's been 2 months now just about and no ones offered to help me fix it or anything until i can get a new car. not my dad or mark or anyone. It would be bomb ass if i could fix it myself. but i wouldn't even know where to begin.
anyways, i've got to register for college like by the middle of this month which is 10 days away. But i can't do it because i can't afford it nor will i have time to go. i hate this shit. i hate mark.
gah, i'm in a bitchy mood today. i've been taken advantage of at work and i would go find another job, but i won't be able to find one that pays as good as this one does. I dont know. I'll figure something out as always.
I think i'm going to start going to church sunday mornings for the service. I think it may do me some good.
My psychologist broke down and had to move before she went psycho. It's kinda sad that the person i go to for my problems broke down to me. That made me feel odd. It worries me actually. I think i'll just keep things to myself from now on because i may just make another psychologist break down. . .no good.
I'm going shopping with my mom this weekend and the only reason that's even going to be possible is because she's going to be picking me up and i'm spending my gift cards i got for my birthday. I need some new clothes.
Anyways, i'm out. I've got another hour or so before i can go to lunch and i'm really looking forward to that because i need to just sit by myself for a little while.
have a nice weekend everyone : )