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[myeventhorizon]

I realized today that i am whoever you want me to be. I don't have a personality. Change that. I adapt. I blend in. I am here for anyone and everyone. I do not hate. I only wonder. In my mind, I analyze each action, reaction, and every sentence that comes out of your mouth. When i say "your" i do not mean anyone specifically. Screw that, yes i do. I always assume the worst, and I am gullible. These two qualities do not mix. I get hurt too easily. But it's me. I am confused about my entire life at this very moment. Where am I going? Who's going with me? As if I'm the first person to ask these questions. I keep taking deep breaths. It just seems necessary. I can't feel my finger tips, or my lips. If i close my eyes, my head does flips. Am I rhyming on purpose? No, of course not. I don't even know if i am cold or hot. Okay, so maybe i am. It's starting to wear off. I'm becoming myself again. I guess it's back to being shy, boring, and scared. I fell too quickly, and it's just hard for me to stand back up. I sat still and thought about things for over an hour at work today. I did not make any conclusions, or come up with any answers. I continue to be a mystery. does that make me interesting?

nope.

hah, what the hell am i talking about?