Thoughts of u invade me
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I've been really busy lately. I've had work everyday and come home dead on my feet. Not because it's hard or anything or even because I'm standing. I've been so sleepy all the time. It's crazy. I come home and pass out. I wake up for a lil bit and talk to ppl and then go back to sleep and then go to school the next day and go to sleep when i get home from school. Well, thats what i was doing. But now i have to be at work right after school so i cant do that. But i still go to sleep by 5 or so. I'm still gettin nausous everytime i eat. It sux. The other day Heather and I went to the fair with a bunch of our old friends. It was like a girls night out. It was fun but it was just really wierd. It's like we don't feel totally cofortable around them anymore. Anywho, We went to Burger King and both she and I always feel down and have the same thoughts running through our heads. So, I hate to say this but we usually drink when we feel the need to erase these thoughts. The problem is...I cant drink apparently. I had half of a bottle and I was feeling sick. I'm like, "Not even a buzz and I'm about to puke?" It was really annoying. I just dont know y i cant eat or have alcohol without feeling sick and its been going on for a little over a month or so. And the fact that I sleep all the time adds to it. So what do ya'll think? I dunno.
I went to the fair again with Heather last night. We only stayed out for like an hour possibly. I went with my friend Josh,the one who randoly called me after not talkin for months. It was good to see him again and we have good talks. We talk about relationships and all this other stuff. Ive known him since I was 12 so he knows the majority of my life. It's good to be able to talk to folks like that. Anywho, we met up with Heather and we to the fair only to leave 5 mins later to go get a jacket for us. Then we went back and left again cuz it was boring and I was about to pass out from exuastion and Heather and I were just havin a bad night with bad thoughts. We go through the same thing at the same time so were both havin all these retched thoughts goin through our mind cuz we dont know whats going on. It all SUX!So I came home and went to sleep.
I've worried about so much lately that I stil cant say. I posted about it a while back and I didnt say what it was then and I still wont say it. But it's still going through my mind and it's drivin me crazy. I dont know what to do. Well, I have to b at work at 11 again so Im going to take a shower.
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I've been really busy lately. I've had work everyday and come home dead on my feet. Not because it's hard or anything or even because I'm standing. I've been so sleepy all the time. It's crazy. I come home and pass out. I wake up for a lil bit and talk to ppl and then go back to sleep and then go to school the next day and go to sleep when i get home from school. Well, thats what i was doing. But now i have to be at work right after school so i cant do that. But i still go to sleep by 5 or so. I'm still gettin nausous everytime i eat. It sux. The other day Heather and I went to the fair with a bunch of our old friends. It was like a girls night out. It was fun but it was just really wierd. It's like we don't feel totally cofortable around them anymore. Anywho, We went to Burger King and both she and I always feel down and have the same thoughts running through our heads. So, I hate to say this but we usually drink when we feel the need to erase these thoughts. The problem is...I cant drink apparently. I had half of a bottle and I was feeling sick. I'm like, "Not even a buzz and I'm about to puke?" It was really annoying. I just dont know y i cant eat or have alcohol without feeling sick and its been going on for a little over a month or so. And the fact that I sleep all the time adds to it. So what do ya'll think? I dunno.
I went to the fair again with Heather last night. We only stayed out for like an hour possibly. I went with my friend Josh,the one who randoly called me after not talkin for months. It was good to see him again and we have good talks. We talk about relationships and all this other stuff. Ive known him since I was 12 so he knows the majority of my life. It's good to be able to talk to folks like that. Anywho, we met up with Heather and we to the fair only to leave 5 mins later to go get a jacket for us. Then we went back and left again cuz it was boring and I was about to pass out from exuastion and Heather and I were just havin a bad night with bad thoughts. We go through the same thing at the same time so were both havin all these retched thoughts goin through our mind cuz we dont know whats going on. It all SUX!So I came home and went to sleep.
I've worried about so much lately that I stil cant say. I posted about it a while back and I didnt say what it was then and I still wont say it. But it's still going through my mind and it's drivin me crazy. I dont know what to do. Well, I have to b at work at 11 again so Im going to take a shower.
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