Babies are scary
Ok, so at FGC Erika and others noticed my belly. Yeah, it grows after I eat... It grows a lot, in fact. However, this is not something new. It's always grown to the point of looking pregnant (It's round and firm.), but I've not always had the appetite that I do since going off Concerta (my ADD med). Thus, my belly looked rather... pregnant. Even though I have had my period since the last time I did stuff with Will, this scared me shitless. I'm even more scared now that I haven't gotten my period yet. (It's not that I'm later, per say, but I'm not exactly on time either.) I wouldn't know what to do if I am pregnant. My mom announced today that if I want to make adult decisions like living w/ any guy whether it's Will or not (I believe that includes Marky who is no more than a friend.), they will not support me financially because by making an adult decision I'm an adult. Ok, so that sucks because I will be living with Will next year. I also found out I don't have enough money for anything... I only got a job to shop... not to save up to... LIVE! I certainly don't have enough money to support a baby. Further, how the hell can I hold a job, go to school full time while keeping my grades up so as not to loose my scholarships, and take care of a baby? God knows, that is nearly impossible... I'm kind of lost at what to do. I suppose if I am late, I'll get a pregnancy test... but what if it's positive?