Mean thoughts and cheap shots...
Wow. Read:
retel143: okay, so this is going to seem really crazy, but....i just have to ask. Is there anything that I can be praying for you? Because for some reason the Lord has put you on my heart and I have been praying for you for like 2 days now and I don't know what for or anything. So, is there anything in specific that I can lift up in prayer. If not, then I'm sorry for bothering you and you can just think i'm crazy...you probably already do anyway.!
Joeyv167: hey, lol. I don't think you are crazy. lol, i am fine however
Joeyv167: and i think you know why you think you should be praying for me
retel143: what do you think?
retel143: you're confusing me!
Joeyv167: how so?
retel143: you think I know why I think I should be praying for you??!?!?!
Joeyv167: yes
retel143: confused claire right here
retel143: what would that be, friend
Joeyv167: you tell me
retel143: but what if i don't know, which is why I asked you
Joeyv167: nevermind then. if you ever want to know something though, you can come out and ask it, okay?
retel143: joey, can we not play this game
Joeyv167: I am not playing games clair
Joeyv167: lol
Gretel143: well then is it true?
Joeyv167: is what true?>
Joeyv167: what?
retel143: john told me something about you at woodleaf...and I think you know what it is, and I just want to know if it's true....that is, if you even want to tell me
Joeyv167: excuse me?
Joeyv167: i dont know what you are eluding to
Joeyv167: there are many things Jhon could have "told you"
retel143: okay nevermind then
retel143: this is too awkward
Joeyv167: so if you need to ask me something, then go ahead. if not, then thats fine also.
Joeyv167: its not awkward for me
retel143: clearly, there's something that you want me to ask you
Joeyv167: not really
retel143: then why did you even start this?
Joeyv167: i could not care less, but if for some reason you could sleep better at night having a few things resolved, then by all means ask away
retel143: what was it that you were talking about earlier about you thinking that i knew what i should be praying for you for
retel143: i'm just trying to be able to better pray for you and there just seems to be soming there
retel143: but i just can't figure it out
Joeyv167: you my friend are the one playing games, not I.
Joeyv167: riiiight
retel143: are you accusing me of something now?
Joeyv167: yes
Joeyv167: i just accused you of playing games.
retel143: joey, honestly, i don't really care to know everything that is going on in your life, if you want to tell me, that's fine, but really, I'm over being worried about you, but for some strange reason the Lord has put you on my heart and I have been laboring in prayer for you for 2 days now and I don't even know what it's for or what it's about, so I just wanted to try to get a clearer picture of what that is....that is all this is...i'm not trying to pry some deep dark secret out of you, you can trust me on that.
retel143: honest
Joeyv167: if you wanted to ask me if i was gay, you could have come right out and asked it. the mature way. I also don't understand why you feel the need to know anyways, you have already gossiped about it amongst friends, so please don't act "concerned". If you are worried about me, don't be. I am perfectly fine, and perfectly happy. Maybe you should spend some time praying for yourself, because i havent seen you in two years and you are still concerned with what i do and how I live my life. The biggest problem i now have is from OLD FRIENDS who cant seem to get over the fact that, I AM WHO I AM AND I WONT DENY THAT.
Joeyv167: YES I AM GAY. so now you have your answer, and hopefully you can sleep soundly knowing, yes in fact i have "fallen into sin" or something of the sort. I hope everything is going well for you, and i hope that you some day broaden your horizons of life. There is more out there then that Young Life/Church bubble. That is your thing, and cool, everyone should have something to turn to, and you have God. My current situation in life has nothing to do with my faith, and i know you would disagree. I want to apologize for not ever giving you guys (old friends) a chance, but can you blame me? should you blame me? no, i didnt give some of my closest friends the chance to actually get to know me, and that hurt. Within the last couple of months (it being summer and all) i saw so many people from my past, and they went ahead and confirmed my fears. the fear that they were close minded and sepratist, and they were and are. so i guess i wasnt so wrong after all. it is nice hearing from you every now and then Claire, you were very important to me, but i know we will only have a relationship if you can put some things aside. one day you will look back on this and i hope you will see the selfishness in your actions... I know you say you were just "concerned" and part of me wants to believe that. no need to be worried about me, i am perfectly fine, and just as strong if not stronger then i was back then...i have grown, and i am sure you have too, and of course we have grown apart. Thank you for every smile and for every memory. I hope you've found whatever it is you are looking for Claire, good luck, good night.
AND I THOUGHT HIGH SCHOOL WAS OVER