i feel so alone...no good reason
so yeah today...i stayed home...thought i'd get better...or at least more sleep...but no i just cleaned for my mom...but i baked for the first time...i actually did it...and the cupcakes taste really good...ppl liked them and didn't die after eating them...
but back to the reason i titled my update this...i have all these ppl...yet i feel so alone...i don't know why...its just another or my sob stories...i have this wonderful boyfriend...and i get attention from guys (not saying its better)...but yet reading ppl's infos makes me just get so upset from my past...and how i feel so alone...cause i'm not so close to those from middle school...and i know high school you meet more ppl...and blah blah blah...yeah well i've met my share of fuckers in high school...and a handful of good ppl...and i'm always around those great ppl...but i miss my friends from middle school all of a sudden...it sucks...so that's why i feel so alone...cause its like i'm away from them...and its like i'm alone without them...blah blah blah...like i said...another of my sob stories...but one person that i miss most sticks out and he's the reason i mentioned the whole attention from boys...i miss his friendship...how we could hang out and have the best of times...now he's too busy and yeah i'm always busy and working and shit...but i don't know...yes i could make an effort...but i'm sick of always making that effort...grrrrr...i'm sorry that i just rambled...i just needed to get that off my chest...yes i miss a boy...and not in the way that i want him back...i want him back...but i want his friendship back...and i DON'T want him to go with this girl b.c i don't like her and i don't have feelings for him...its just...uhg!!...blah blah blah...done rambling...
i love all of my friends that i have now...you guys are the reason i'm becoming stronger...you guys are the best...thank you ALL that i'm around...i love each and every one of you in your own special way...not naming anyone for the purpose of accidentally leaving someone out...so you know who you are...
..and that's my story..the end..
.:. lil kid .:.
but back to the reason i titled my update this...i have all these ppl...yet i feel so alone...i don't know why...its just another or my sob stories...i have this wonderful boyfriend...and i get attention from guys (not saying its better)...but yet reading ppl's infos makes me just get so upset from my past...and how i feel so alone...cause i'm not so close to those from middle school...and i know high school you meet more ppl...and blah blah blah...yeah well i've met my share of fuckers in high school...and a handful of good ppl...and i'm always around those great ppl...but i miss my friends from middle school all of a sudden...it sucks...so that's why i feel so alone...cause its like i'm away from them...and its like i'm alone without them...blah blah blah...like i said...another of my sob stories...but one person that i miss most sticks out and he's the reason i mentioned the whole attention from boys...i miss his friendship...how we could hang out and have the best of times...now he's too busy and yeah i'm always busy and working and shit...but i don't know...yes i could make an effort...but i'm sick of always making that effort...grrrrr...i'm sorry that i just rambled...i just needed to get that off my chest...yes i miss a boy...and not in the way that i want him back...i want him back...but i want his friendship back...and i DON'T want him to go with this girl b.c i don't like her and i don't have feelings for him...its just...uhg!!...blah blah blah...done rambling...
i love all of my friends that i have now...you guys are the reason i'm becoming stronger...you guys are the best...thank you ALL that i'm around...i love each and every one of you in your own special way...not naming anyone for the purpose of accidentally leaving someone out...so you know who you are...
..and that's my story..the end..
.:. lil kid .:.