so here i sit...after being home all day
so i've been sick lately...i missed school on wed. & fri. (today)...but yet its not helping to lay around and not do anything...cause i still can't breathe or swallow anything...cause of my damn sore throat and being all congested...
anyway...things are changing between me and my friends...i was reading this today in someone's journal...that they feel left out cause all of her friends have their best friends so where does she fit in...yeah well i'm having that problem also...
all the ppl i usually hang out with...all have their best friends and what not...and its like hi kara this person can't hang out...or we're fighting...so what are you doing...wanna hang out...
^that's not happening...but that's kinda what it seems like...but whatever...i guess its a part of life...to go through a lot of friends before u find the best friend...same with guys...but thats a diff story for me...i dont want a boyfriend...i'm content right now...
but anyway...i've been fighting with my last 2 hour teachers...cause both are major bitches...and wow...their both females...hmm...wonder how that happens...oh right girls NEVER get alone...
i've thought a lot about how i want to write my entries and i've even written some out before i type them...but i just don't ever say what i want to say...i guess that could be one of my problems...never saying or telling how i'm really feeling...
well if u want to know how i'm feeling...i feel out of place everywhere...and yes everyone feels that in high school i realize this...but i'm sick of it...i hate walking down the halls feeling like so which clique can i fit with today...cause everyday its a different group everyday...and my "friends" yeah ok what does that mean anyway...but anyway...they've been pissing me off lately...and yes i guess like jackie did say yesterday everyone feels like they're the ones who're going out of their way for ppl...well i feel that way...i feel like i go and give rides to ppl for nothing...i want to make plans but they're to busy and i just sit around with waiting for something to do...then they call cause plans get cancelled and of course i lie to my mom to go out...ugh!!! this is a continuous cycle...!!
but anyway...i just heard a song...it says it all...but i can't post it cause my pc hates me...so read this...then i'll post the lyrics...
.:. *little zoink* .:.