i have the urge
so i've been thinking...well actually a lot lately...i'm so grateful for EVERY SINGLE BREATH I TAKE...i'll never know when its my last one...i'm going to change for the better...get rid of the bitchness...start letting more ppl into my hearts...just not open up...i still don't have that trust for anyone...no matter whom it is...i had a good time this weekend...just being away was nice...didn't do anything that i couldn't have done here...but i still enjoyed the last few moments i shared with my bro before he gradatates from IU and moves on to his life...well after he finds his job...but still...i love being away after a long week...it was cut short cause i didn't go to school friday cause we were suppose to leave early but i'm a girl...and so's bray...so yeah...
ok so enough of that...but anyway...i've really thought about it...with me being grateful for my every breath i take...i'm very grateful for those that have crossed a path in my life in some sort of way...each and every person that i've met along the way of my long journey in my life has taught me something...even if it is explaining to me what a "sell-out" is...lol...anyway...but honestly...
i've come to the conclusion that after spending weekends with ppl on trips away from here...the only 2 ppl that i've been able to come home and say wow...i want you to stay here forever or something along those lines...is my jax and bray...cause i've come to the conclusion that i can't get sick of them...no way...no how...
but other than out of town trips...friends i've stayed here with all weekend or on breaks...much love to them also...
just because i may get sick of you from a weekend away doesn't mean that i don't have love for you...each and every person...i love in some kind of way...ok well some i may dislike VERY much but...they've taught me something anyways...
ok i'm just babbling...but i just wanted to get that out...
ok...yeah...well today...not such a great day...and yesterday i was the same way...i wanted to cry today....i hate this whole period thing...its messing up my emotions...some days i'm happy as all get out and some days i hate life...i just wish that my pills would even those differences out...but its ok...i just its something i have to accustom (probably wrong word choice) to...i hate feeling so down that my life is going no where...i hate that...i hate fighting with ppl...yet i cause drama to myself causing fights...i hate the way i've been to you lately...and i could change that...but i try...but its like it won't work...i'll explain to you...and i get so annoyed with things that i want to kill the innocent ppl cause i end up taking it out on the ones that truly care...bahhhhhh...
this was suppose to be a good entry and its turning all sad and emo~like...anyway
...i'm done...
"cause we effin' rock your socks off"
.:. zoink .:.
ok so enough of that...but anyway...i've really thought about it...with me being grateful for my every breath i take...i'm very grateful for those that have crossed a path in my life in some sort of way...each and every person that i've met along the way of my long journey in my life has taught me something...even if it is explaining to me what a "sell-out" is...lol...anyway...but honestly...
i've come to the conclusion that after spending weekends with ppl on trips away from here...the only 2 ppl that i've been able to come home and say wow...i want you to stay here forever or something along those lines...is my jax and bray...cause i've come to the conclusion that i can't get sick of them...no way...no how...
but other than out of town trips...friends i've stayed here with all weekend or on breaks...much love to them also...
just because i may get sick of you from a weekend away doesn't mean that i don't have love for you...each and every person...i love in some kind of way...ok well some i may dislike VERY much but...they've taught me something anyways...
ok i'm just babbling...but i just wanted to get that out...
ok...yeah...well today...not such a great day...and yesterday i was the same way...i wanted to cry today....i hate this whole period thing...its messing up my emotions...some days i'm happy as all get out and some days i hate life...i just wish that my pills would even those differences out...but its ok...i just its something i have to accustom (probably wrong word choice) to...i hate feeling so down that my life is going no where...i hate that...i hate fighting with ppl...yet i cause drama to myself causing fights...i hate the way i've been to you lately...and i could change that...but i try...but its like it won't work...i'll explain to you...and i get so annoyed with things that i want to kill the innocent ppl cause i end up taking it out on the ones that truly care...bahhhhhh...
this was suppose to be a good entry and its turning all sad and emo~like...anyway
...i'm done...
"cause we effin' rock your socks off"
.:. zoink .:.