odd dreams
So I had a dream last nite about my cat that died. I had a dream that I was at work, although it didn't look how work looked now. I saw her and I called her to me, and she started coming, but then when I walked around an isle she didnt come around, and for some reason I knew she wasnt going to come, so I didn't go back looking for her. Its odd how some people can think of animals as just animals. Its been over 5 months since she died, yet I still miss her and I still think I see her out of the corner of my eye; I have tears in my eyes as I write this. I dont think most of my dreams mean anything but I do think that that one did mean something, I just dont know what. Forever is a long time without someone you love, Im in a weird mood. I dont know if I will live through Emma going, I dont even like to think about it, much less talk about it. I just hope that I am a vet when the time comes so I can help her. When my cat was sick, I was giving her IV's every day, it didnt bother me though, it felt good to be doing something that helped her, instead of just sitting back. Im off to bed, I've made myself beyond depressed. Nite