A map to myself
I've cut my hair. Quite a lot. Like... 15 centimetres? Or nearly.
I'm trying to de-intoxicate from Oceansize's last album, "Frames". Honestly, it's so good and I've waited for it for so long that it's been everything I've listened to for the last 4 weeks. I think I need some time off to get some distance from it and then come back for more, to fully appreciate all its goodness. I think 5 days will be enough, but it's going to be a challenge for me!
Lately I've got in touch again with 2 people I haven't seen for many years. They both were very important to me at some point of my life, and I think it will do me good to see them again -because I've missed them mainly, but also to check how time has made them change, to talk things from the objectiveness time without seeing each other has given us, to finally smile and close a period of my life that ended in the most unexpected way, leaving me astray.
I'll be in London in two weeks time, just for three days. To me, London is not a city -I kind of feel it like a state of mind, or like a loved one. When I'm in Barcelona, I miss it in the same way I could miss an old lover, or a past time in which I felt very happy. The moment I step out of the coach and into Victoria Station with my backpack, I feel calm and happy, I feel at home. For some reason I feel I belong there more than I belong to Barcelona. The most curious thing, I guess, it's that I've never lived there really. But with many European cities still to discover, I find myself visiting London once and again, even if it's for a few days only.
I'm becoming 26 next 17th October. I'm doing so in London, on my own. I'm not scared at all -I'm positive it's going to be an inflection point.
I'll walk around the city, taking pictures of small details and looking at shop windows. I'll wear a warm coat and buy a new pair of shoes, I'll eat Cornish pastries and drink cyder, I'll ask for directions in my best BBC accent and I will probably get lost at some point, I'll visit a museum and I will look at the Thames and try to read a secret message in its waters, and I will see Oceansize live for my second and third time
and while doing so
I will tidy up my head and my heart.
Hopefully by the time I'm back I'll love myself a little bit more.
And I will know what to do with life, this mess I'm in.
I'm trying to de-intoxicate from Oceansize's last album, "Frames". Honestly, it's so good and I've waited for it for so long that it's been everything I've listened to for the last 4 weeks. I think I need some time off to get some distance from it and then come back for more, to fully appreciate all its goodness. I think 5 days will be enough, but it's going to be a challenge for me!
Lately I've got in touch again with 2 people I haven't seen for many years. They both were very important to me at some point of my life, and I think it will do me good to see them again -because I've missed them mainly, but also to check how time has made them change, to talk things from the objectiveness time without seeing each other has given us, to finally smile and close a period of my life that ended in the most unexpected way, leaving me astray.
I'll be in London in two weeks time, just for three days. To me, London is not a city -I kind of feel it like a state of mind, or like a loved one. When I'm in Barcelona, I miss it in the same way I could miss an old lover, or a past time in which I felt very happy. The moment I step out of the coach and into Victoria Station with my backpack, I feel calm and happy, I feel at home. For some reason I feel I belong there more than I belong to Barcelona. The most curious thing, I guess, it's that I've never lived there really. But with many European cities still to discover, I find myself visiting London once and again, even if it's for a few days only.
I'm becoming 26 next 17th October. I'm doing so in London, on my own. I'm not scared at all -I'm positive it's going to be an inflection point.
I'll walk around the city, taking pictures of small details and looking at shop windows. I'll wear a warm coat and buy a new pair of shoes, I'll eat Cornish pastries and drink cyder, I'll ask for directions in my best BBC accent and I will probably get lost at some point, I'll visit a museum and I will look at the Thames and try to read a secret message in its waters, and I will see Oceansize live for my second and third time
and while doing so
I will tidy up my head and my heart.
Hopefully by the time I'm back I'll love myself a little bit more.
And I will know what to do with life, this mess I'm in.