Nice to hear you are feeling good! You sound kind of like me sometimes... how I feel... especially this bit:
"It feels so good to not have that awful exhausting gloom choking me. Makes me a little leary of where it went or why it's gone and when will it be back, but for now, it's gone. Oh, and I don't think I'm in a manic stage, I just feel normal....I was able to sleep normally, and I'm not running around all crazed."
The need to question yourself -- Am I abnormally revved-up and happy since I actually feel happy and pretty pleased with myself and the world? Or am I just normal, just not depressed? Could that be???
And the suspicious feeling -- Where did it go? When will it be back? Should I hold my breath or is it ok to relax?
Glad to hear about the two non-sucking weekends. I'm sure you were due. Good job on finding yet another use for the glue gun; and on leather pants no less. They probably look hot with those new shoes.
I've never done the mum thing, but I was just at Home Depot shopping for molding and getting top soil and all those lovely fall colored flowers were calling out to me. Maybe I'll go back this evening and get a bunch.
Hi Old FriendsmydnyteskyeSeptember 20 2004, 14:02:12 UTC
Hi ansi and Steve,
If I keep my perspective, I can see that I am just being who I was BEFORE the major shit hit the fan all those months ago. It would be so nice to not get that down again. I know I cycle, I've even tried to figure out the triggers in my book-journals. Linda does not want to be Such A Friggin Victim anymore. Really. I think I'll just enjoy this while it lasts. I guess I did have good motivation to flip. I really have never been that bad before. I was isolating like never before, blowing off the people I never had a problem being around.
And I am proud to say: I Love My Glue Gun. It was a great solution. Worked beautifully.
Yes Steve, get the mums. I do mums in the fall, snow in the winter-no choice there-tulips in the spring and whatever catches my fancy in the summer. This year I went zinnia-crazy.
Where did I ger velvet from? My new shoes are suede. Velvet? Work's over...gotta go!
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"It feels so good to not have that awful exhausting gloom choking me. Makes me a little leary of where it went or why it's gone and when will it be back, but for now, it's gone.
Oh, and I don't think I'm in a manic stage, I just feel normal....I was able to sleep normally, and I'm not running around all crazed."
The need to question yourself -- Am I abnormally revved-up and happy since I actually feel happy and pretty pleased with myself and the world? Or am I just normal, just not depressed? Could that be???
And the suspicious feeling -- Where did it go? When will it be back? Should I hold my breath or is it ok to relax?
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I've never done the mum thing, but I was just at Home Depot shopping for molding and getting top soil and all those lovely fall colored flowers were calling out to me. Maybe I'll go back this evening and get a bunch.
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If I keep my perspective, I can see that I am just being who I was BEFORE the major shit hit the fan all those months ago. It would be so nice to not get that down again. I know I cycle, I've even tried to figure out the triggers in my book-journals.
Linda does not want to be Such A Friggin Victim anymore. Really.
I think I'll just enjoy this while it lasts. I guess I did have good motivation to flip. I really have never been that bad before. I was isolating like never before, blowing off the people I never had a problem being around.
And I am proud to say: I Love My Glue Gun.
It was a great solution. Worked beautifully.
Yes Steve, get the mums. I do mums in the fall, snow in the winter-no choice there-tulips in the spring and whatever catches my fancy in the summer. This year I went zinnia-crazy.
Where did I ger velvet from? My new shoes are suede. Velvet?
Work's over...gotta go!
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