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Everyone should play this really cool game...
It's called the "Lets Lead Sam On Game."
Well, well, well, I've come to realize within these past few months that people like to basically use me and walk all over me to get what they want. I get strung along like I'm genuinely cared about and then big slap in the face and I come to realize I'm really wrong and am being decieved. The last thing I want right now is to end up broken hearted or attached to someone because I'm so afraid of getting hurt, which is what is happening to me right now. Some people can tell you that they understand where you're coming from, but honestly, you have no clue unless you're put in this sort of position.
Let me just say right now that I'm not going to compromise my morals for anyone. I don't care who you are or even if I've known you my entire life, I'm not giving up my own morals for you and sure as hell not letting my guard down so easily. People keep giving me reasons NOT to trust them. I already have extreme trust issues, which my close friends know about, and rightfully so it's hard for me to be able to trust. I hate when I feel close to someone and then it's basically just one slap in the face after another that makes me realize, "hey you're stupid.." (as in me). I tend to care about people too quickly and then I start to become emotionally attached, which as everyone knows isn't the best thing ever. Just when you start to think things may someday work out and someday you could be with someone, your hope just gets shot down time after time and it starts sinking in that "nope...you're wrong."
Blehhh I might as will stick a fork or something in my eye. Don't know why but it seems like...fun? Not. haha. Hm. Yeah I'm just pretty fed up at this point. I'm getting used for various reasons which I'm starting to understand and see for myself and it's killing me.
"Please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed."
All I really have to say about this subject anymore.
And yes, Andi, our invention will make millions!!!! haha.
♥xox-Sam
ps: Off to hell I go (school) for an 8am class..arg....
pss: THEEEEN the storm comes.
It's called the "Lets Lead Sam On Game."
Well, well, well, I've come to realize within these past few months that people like to basically use me and walk all over me to get what they want. I get strung along like I'm genuinely cared about and then big slap in the face and I come to realize I'm really wrong and am being decieved. The last thing I want right now is to end up broken hearted or attached to someone because I'm so afraid of getting hurt, which is what is happening to me right now. Some people can tell you that they understand where you're coming from, but honestly, you have no clue unless you're put in this sort of position.
Let me just say right now that I'm not going to compromise my morals for anyone. I don't care who you are or even if I've known you my entire life, I'm not giving up my own morals for you and sure as hell not letting my guard down so easily. People keep giving me reasons NOT to trust them. I already have extreme trust issues, which my close friends know about, and rightfully so it's hard for me to be able to trust. I hate when I feel close to someone and then it's basically just one slap in the face after another that makes me realize, "hey you're stupid.." (as in me). I tend to care about people too quickly and then I start to become emotionally attached, which as everyone knows isn't the best thing ever. Just when you start to think things may someday work out and someday you could be with someone, your hope just gets shot down time after time and it starts sinking in that "nope...you're wrong."
Blehhh I might as will stick a fork or something in my eye. Don't know why but it seems like...fun? Not. haha. Hm. Yeah I'm just pretty fed up at this point. I'm getting used for various reasons which I'm starting to understand and see for myself and it's killing me.
"Please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed."
All I really have to say about this subject anymore.
And yes, Andi, our invention will make millions!!!! haha.
♥xox-Sam
ps: Off to hell I go (school) for an 8am class..arg....
pss: THEEEEN the storm comes.