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So yeah I said I wouldn't be online....
Told myself I'd get away from the computer and wouldn't answer the phone all week. Ok well here's an exception. Today is my last day of getting on the computer for a week (i'm taking myself away from it because I honestly need a break from everything and everyone...no offense). I need to come on here and ( Read more... )
Told myself I'd get away from the computer and wouldn't answer the phone all week. Ok well here's an exception. Today is my last day of getting on the computer for a week (i'm taking myself away from it because I honestly need a break from everything and everyone...no offense). I need to come on here and ( Read more... )
I don't know when you're going to read this, or even if you're going to read this, because you're not going to be online....but I'm going to write it anyway.
Seriously, the people who are being assholes to you are stupid. I can't even believe they wouldn't want to be your friend - you're FUNNY, smart, fun, TALENTED, caring, and an amazing person and friend. They're stupid for not realizing the full extent of that - or, if they do, they're stupid to ignore it and treat you any worse than you deserve.
I am SO glad to hear about your role...congratulations!! You really are going for your dreams. I am so jealous of you, because you know what you want and are not afraid to go for it. DONT let go of your dreams...you have way too much talent and potential to throw any of it away. Don't you dare settle for anything less than exactly what you want. It's your life, not anyone else's.
And about college - this isn't the end of everything!!! Everyone's going to be coming back, at least I know for sure that I'll be home MANY weekends!!!!! Don't think August 20th is the last time we'll really hang out for that long....I'm coming back and kidnapping you and hanging out with you whether you like it or not, crazy girl!!! :-o
About the guy thing - you basically voiced what I've been thinking the past few weeks, since the whole "incident". I think we both need guys who aren't just there to kiss us - but ones who are there to talk. Basically, guys who aren't just boyfriends but friends. You will find someone Sam, when you're ready for a relationship again....and he's going to be AMAZING, I just know it.
"Sometimes I just get sooo down on myself and just wish that I wasn't here and wasn't around anymore. I think people's lives would be better if I just never came into them, ya know?" ---- Sam this is not true at ALL, trust me. I can't imagine anyone thinking this about you. I can't exactly speak for everyone else, but I can speak for myself - and you've made my life so much better since we've been friends...you're such a fun and optimistic person, someone who truly cares. There is NOTHING wrong with you....you are amazing. Don't let anyone tell you differently or make you feel otherwise, because if they do, they're 105% wrong! And please dont ever ever ever EVER think of suicide...I don't know what I'd do, I really don't. You've got WAY too much ahead of you. There will always be someone here for you (me, at the very least), I know you don't feel like it right now but you have SO many friends and family who love you. Don't do it to them...but most of all, don't do it to yourself.
Just hang in there. Things will get better - you're a good person therefore you have karma on your side :-) Just keep praying and hoping and things WILL go your way again.
And I know you're avoiding the phone so I won't call you....but if you DO need to talk, I'm here....my cell phone's 6570177 and it's pretty much always on, so NEVER hesitate to call me, EVER. I'm here for you :-)
I love you Sam!!!!!! -Jen
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