check your morals at the door

Aug 04, 2010 12:46

I'm an anxious ball of foolishness with just enough selfish hope to kill any good intention that might exist.

Alright "kiddo", here we go again. Heart is pulsing, stomach is sinking. Yeah, I think I like you.

I haven't tried to figure out how this body of mine works in three years and I'm not gonna figure it out overnight, so bear with me if you would. Just know whatever happens I'm finally at a place where this is all good intentioned. This isn't a cry for attention or affection. It isn't a one night cure for loneliness. This isn't an attempt to heal or forget about the past. It isn't me trying to make you feel better the only haphazardly way I know how. This is me knowing I haven't been able to get you out of my head for months now.

I want to stay and figure out this body of mine for all the right (subjective) reasons, but I don't know if I can for all the right (objective) reasons.

I've never understood how subjective truth is truth at all. And as for that objective truth I've been seeking, I wanted to keep my mind's selfish desires away from what it has to offer.

But the heart is pulsing, and the stomach is sinking. Where do we go from here?
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