I never thought it possible
When the boundaries of friendship have been tried, tested, pulled and torn, one wonders is it really worth it in the end? Looking at past mistakes I've made in re to character, I wonder why I have been so willing in letting someone in that close, especially when I am so closed in every other way. The strength of a friendship falls on both parties, working on one single goal, being there for each other in any way possible. When one starts to let go, the load becomes too much to bear for one single person, and things become unbalanced.
The cardinal rule of ex's and friends is something everyone regardless of age must know, friend's do not date your ex's. So with that being the basic rule, how does one interpret the different levels of this social rule? This is where things become a little gray, does it include one night stands, friend-i-fits, or even those admired from afar? With friends one must lay down the blueprint before any sort of these situations have a possibility of happening. No one thinks of doing this, because friend's are never supposed to hurt you. Relationships are based around trust, and talking, and figuring things out to keep the relationship strong, with a slight possibility always lingering in the back, this may not work out. In friendships you don't have the same worries, you do strive to be truthful and honest, yet you never have that fear lurking in the dark corner of it ending. When your romantic world and friendship world collide its hard to know how to handle it. Most times its the male who came between, some cases it was the friend, but you manage to either work it out, or break it off with both. What can one do in the situation where you work with both of them?
For the longest time my cardinal rule was never to get involved with a coworker. I had lived by it and managed to make it work, sure there was attraction, but I never let my brain think of anymore. So why is it that us females see a male who we think is so different from the rest. We change our norms, let go of our rules in the hopes we didn't make some stupid mistake. Low and behold I made the stupid mistake thanks to the help of alcohol and a very charming coworker, luckily I am a smart enough person to not sleep with someone so easily. For the next week and a half we acted like nothing happened, yet I had a delusion that I had feelings for him. I call it a delusion, yet I think they were legitimate, very so. Who of course do I tell my feelings to? My best friend of course, who had started working with both of us a week after the drunken incident. So flash forward to Saturday night, exactly two weeks later, its party time. I decided to go to see what happens, best friend shows up with another coworker. I try and go for "round two" with the boy, only to be rejected and told of "someone else". So I leave the party, have my dramatic moment then come back because I am not the type of girl to sulk in the corner when fun is being had. So in my drunken mind I want some validation of who I am, for I never am rejected to my face. So I make out with one of his close friends, not even to spite coworker boy, rather because thats what was there being thrown at me ...
work in progress ....
yeah haven't written in here in forever, actually I haven't written anything in forever. Its funny how such emotional events trigger that creativity. Now I work ... with coworker boy, and if anyone reads this I'm sure you smart enough to know the rest ...
The cardinal rule of ex's and friends is something everyone regardless of age must know, friend's do not date your ex's. So with that being the basic rule, how does one interpret the different levels of this social rule? This is where things become a little gray, does it include one night stands, friend-i-fits, or even those admired from afar? With friends one must lay down the blueprint before any sort of these situations have a possibility of happening. No one thinks of doing this, because friend's are never supposed to hurt you. Relationships are based around trust, and talking, and figuring things out to keep the relationship strong, with a slight possibility always lingering in the back, this may not work out. In friendships you don't have the same worries, you do strive to be truthful and honest, yet you never have that fear lurking in the dark corner of it ending. When your romantic world and friendship world collide its hard to know how to handle it. Most times its the male who came between, some cases it was the friend, but you manage to either work it out, or break it off with both. What can one do in the situation where you work with both of them?
For the longest time my cardinal rule was never to get involved with a coworker. I had lived by it and managed to make it work, sure there was attraction, but I never let my brain think of anymore. So why is it that us females see a male who we think is so different from the rest. We change our norms, let go of our rules in the hopes we didn't make some stupid mistake. Low and behold I made the stupid mistake thanks to the help of alcohol and a very charming coworker, luckily I am a smart enough person to not sleep with someone so easily. For the next week and a half we acted like nothing happened, yet I had a delusion that I had feelings for him. I call it a delusion, yet I think they were legitimate, very so. Who of course do I tell my feelings to? My best friend of course, who had started working with both of us a week after the drunken incident. So flash forward to Saturday night, exactly two weeks later, its party time. I decided to go to see what happens, best friend shows up with another coworker. I try and go for "round two" with the boy, only to be rejected and told of "someone else". So I leave the party, have my dramatic moment then come back because I am not the type of girl to sulk in the corner when fun is being had. So in my drunken mind I want some validation of who I am, for I never am rejected to my face. So I make out with one of his close friends, not even to spite coworker boy, rather because thats what was there being thrown at me ...
work in progress ....
yeah haven't written in here in forever, actually I haven't written anything in forever. Its funny how such emotional events trigger that creativity. Now I work ... with coworker boy, and if anyone reads this I'm sure you smart enough to know the rest ...