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im juss writing cuz Mr.Paolo said he pwn'd me cuz i havent written in my lj, sooo take that!
and i felt like it too. thought it was just about time i wrote in my lovely lj of mine.
before i start i just wanna say something. i think i'm hurting a few people right now and i dont feel right about the situation that i'm being put in because i dont think it'll end very pretty.
it never does.
all i know is that there are more than 2 dudes that like me right now. and its gay as fuck cuz i hate turning ppl down, but i have to. i dont wanna go out w/ anyone til things calm down.
i feel like i myself am a fad.i think i'll die down soon enough, i'd say in a few weeks or so, then i'll be ok. not that im stressin it so much.i'm just being aware of it.
life is chill and hostile at the same time for me right now. i just dont make a big deal about the negative things cuz theres not point to that. why look down when you could look at the not so fucked up side instead, and not being in denial either lol
got a whole lot of things running through my mind. but when it comes to ppl askin me what its about, i cant put it to words exactly. dunno of thats a good thing yet or not.
but yeah, here are a few things i've established already;
-i work
yes, at mcDonalds. i get 2 days off everyweek and get paid every 2 weeks [<--bummer], the manager [well, Ema one of the managers] chooses what days i get off unfortunately for me.
i basically hang out w/ 3 dudes at micky D's; hermis , yonnny and robert Ruben!! lol, i like them all alot, they're cool as hell to chill with, lol and they're all cuban.had to be hialeah haha
well yeah i do my job and a i do a pretty good job at it if i do say so myself, but in between i make sure i have fun
Hermis [the blonde haired part time EMT firefighter cuban guy w/ blue eyes a.k.a Emo Kidd] always leaves me stupid notes on empty reciept paper. it always says either
[a]loser
[b]what a loser
or
[c]you're a loserface lol
i always leave him notes too juss cuz its funny as hell.mines are always either
[a] you suck so bad
[b]omg what a/you're such a !dork
or
[c] d o r k!!!
haha, then theres ruben [black haired skaterboy green eyed wanna be italian mofo =P] , freaking cuban that acts all gangsterr and stuff, he's the grillman that makes the sammiches and when i get them he's always like "o m g a m y!" lol he's silly.he likes punk so thats like instant awesomeness right there. today when he got on break he was standing next to me pretending to take orders and kicking me like the big dummy that he is . rawr they all call me amy even though i told them not to but w/e i'll find a way to make 'em stop mhm -nods-
last but not least theres the crazy eyed metal head yonny!! i dont hang out w/ yonny so much anymore cuz he usually has the night shift but he's still cool, he acts stupid, alot xD. they make him do e v e r y t h i n g! he's the grillman, the frenchfry guy, he throws away the garbage, sweeps, mops, and drive thru too i think he told me he he's getting surgery on his eye >_< hope he'll be ok
-my grandma
is taking me to work and back everyday. i'd honestly would rather wait for the bus cuz that way i get to go to my friends houses easier and shit.but noooo she wants to do it.thats her man, i already told her i didnt want her wastin her gas on me but no one listens to meli til its too late
-my friends
alot of my homies have visited me to mcDonalds while i work
=D its kickass and funny as hell too
juss like playin store! Rofl
more ppl are sayin they're gonna come to visit me, i'd like to see that.really would.
i went to turner the other day cuz some of my buds were there for night school and i told them i'd visit, so i did.
waited for them outside until they got out. i was sitting by the tree that jon and i were at that day.lol i remember the cars wouldnt stop honking at us lol
but ahh no matter how hard i try i just cant forget that. i looked and it turns out our initials that he carved are still there on the tree.
maybe thats my problem, i just should stop trying so hard to forget and let w/e happens happen .
saw dio, john, and paolo! yay it was cool. went to paolos house w/john. freaking dio had to go home though =(
and John missed his bus!!! lol that was sooo funny to me lol poor guy waited so long for the bus and it never passed by
it was paolos sisters b-day. she's reeeally really pretty (imnotgayimnotgay) dunno just had to say it lol love her hair too
had cake and pizza. i put an A in blue icing on paolos face. PWN'D!!
got on the roof and chilled there too. that was peaceful, so peaceful that i just layed there closed my eyes and almost fell asleep. yes paolo i was paying attention to everything you were sayin =P
thanks again for the i feel sick comics and the jersey! i love it,really do, gotta get you something twice as cool, thats gonna be hard lol
well the gay ass bus never came for me either so had to call my grandma at like 9 to pick me up. mom was weird as always about me getting out. talks soo much shit on the phone but when i get home she has nothing to say about the matter. oh well i did tell her where i was going contrary to what she says.
blah.
tomorrow's my day off. i wanna have fun
im getting my tattoo really soon. my sister already got hers. its pretty but its not what i would get. she got a tattoo on her lower back w/ her name on it. its like mixed w/ a star and a moon. i dunno how ima get it yet, i just want somethin creative. ima tell the guy this idea that i have in mind. now that i think about it, i want 2 tattoos lol ima be poor again oh well dont care about money anway.
i miss my homies that are far away, Jon, Syka, Schofield, Kike'. all you homos need to get back here already.
and ima go to dolphin mext week [ i think!!]
thats all that i got outta me for now :]
and i felt like it too. thought it was just about time i wrote in my lovely lj of mine.
before i start i just wanna say something. i think i'm hurting a few people right now and i dont feel right about the situation that i'm being put in because i dont think it'll end very pretty.
it never does.
all i know is that there are more than 2 dudes that like me right now. and its gay as fuck cuz i hate turning ppl down, but i have to. i dont wanna go out w/ anyone til things calm down.
i feel like i myself am a fad.i think i'll die down soon enough, i'd say in a few weeks or so, then i'll be ok. not that im stressin it so much.i'm just being aware of it.
life is chill and hostile at the same time for me right now. i just dont make a big deal about the negative things cuz theres not point to that. why look down when you could look at the not so fucked up side instead, and not being in denial either lol
got a whole lot of things running through my mind. but when it comes to ppl askin me what its about, i cant put it to words exactly. dunno of thats a good thing yet or not.
but yeah, here are a few things i've established already;
-i work
yes, at mcDonalds. i get 2 days off everyweek and get paid every 2 weeks [<--bummer], the manager [well, Ema one of the managers] chooses what days i get off unfortunately for me.
i basically hang out w/ 3 dudes at micky D's; hermis , yonnny and robert Ruben!! lol, i like them all alot, they're cool as hell to chill with, lol and they're all cuban.had to be hialeah haha
well yeah i do my job and a i do a pretty good job at it if i do say so myself, but in between i make sure i have fun
Hermis [the blonde haired part time EMT firefighter cuban guy w/ blue eyes a.k.a Emo Kidd] always leaves me stupid notes on empty reciept paper. it always says either
[a]loser
[b]what a loser
or
[c]you're a loserface lol
i always leave him notes too juss cuz its funny as hell.mines are always either
[a] you suck so bad
[b]omg what a/you're such a !dork
or
[c] d o r k!!!
haha, then theres ruben [black haired skaterboy green eyed wanna be italian mofo =P] , freaking cuban that acts all gangsterr and stuff, he's the grillman that makes the sammiches and when i get them he's always like "o m g a m y!" lol he's silly.he likes punk so thats like instant awesomeness right there. today when he got on break he was standing next to me pretending to take orders and kicking me like the big dummy that he is . rawr they all call me amy even though i told them not to but w/e i'll find a way to make 'em stop mhm -nods-
last but not least theres the crazy eyed metal head yonny!! i dont hang out w/ yonny so much anymore cuz he usually has the night shift but he's still cool, he acts stupid, alot xD. they make him do e v e r y t h i n g! he's the grillman, the frenchfry guy, he throws away the garbage, sweeps, mops, and drive thru too i think he told me he he's getting surgery on his eye >_< hope he'll be ok
-my grandma
is taking me to work and back everyday. i'd honestly would rather wait for the bus cuz that way i get to go to my friends houses easier and shit.but noooo she wants to do it.thats her man, i already told her i didnt want her wastin her gas on me but no one listens to meli til its too late
-my friends
alot of my homies have visited me to mcDonalds while i work
=D its kickass and funny as hell too
juss like playin store! Rofl
more ppl are sayin they're gonna come to visit me, i'd like to see that.really would.
i went to turner the other day cuz some of my buds were there for night school and i told them i'd visit, so i did.
waited for them outside until they got out. i was sitting by the tree that jon and i were at that day.lol i remember the cars wouldnt stop honking at us lol
but ahh no matter how hard i try i just cant forget that. i looked and it turns out our initials that he carved are still there on the tree.
maybe thats my problem, i just should stop trying so hard to forget and let w/e happens happen .
saw dio, john, and paolo! yay it was cool. went to paolos house w/john. freaking dio had to go home though =(
and John missed his bus!!! lol that was sooo funny to me lol poor guy waited so long for the bus and it never passed by
it was paolos sisters b-day. she's reeeally really pretty (imnotgayimnotgay) dunno just had to say it lol love her hair too
had cake and pizza. i put an A in blue icing on paolos face. PWN'D!!
got on the roof and chilled there too. that was peaceful, so peaceful that i just layed there closed my eyes and almost fell asleep. yes paolo i was paying attention to everything you were sayin =P
thanks again for the i feel sick comics and the jersey! i love it,really do, gotta get you something twice as cool, thats gonna be hard lol
well the gay ass bus never came for me either so had to call my grandma at like 9 to pick me up. mom was weird as always about me getting out. talks soo much shit on the phone but when i get home she has nothing to say about the matter. oh well i did tell her where i was going contrary to what she says.
blah.
tomorrow's my day off. i wanna have fun
im getting my tattoo really soon. my sister already got hers. its pretty but its not what i would get. she got a tattoo on her lower back w/ her name on it. its like mixed w/ a star and a moon. i dunno how ima get it yet, i just want somethin creative. ima tell the guy this idea that i have in mind. now that i think about it, i want 2 tattoos lol ima be poor again oh well dont care about money anway.
i miss my homies that are far away, Jon, Syka, Schofield, Kike'. all you homos need to get back here already.
and ima go to dolphin mext week [ i think!!]
thats all that i got outta me for now :]