i thinking that i'm going to be updating much now, it's not like i got anything better to do anyways
too much time on my hands isn't a good thing, really.
like, i've been reading, doing exercise, eatingt ice cream [i just ran out T__T] playing KH2, being online, listening to music, staring at the wall, watching tv for once and walking around my block. all in one day, its killing me, especially since i'm having so much time to think about lots of things that get my confused. You think your sad when you're just plain bored and alone sometimes and its pretty wack. like i feel down when i have no reason to, and sometimes i feel unloved when i have a "BF" who's never really there for me anyways..argh i dunno anymore.
and then theres my homies that go through all this stuff, whats it called.. oh yeah, life.stupid contradictions.
i'm reading a really good book right now. its called death and dying. It's about the opposing veiwpoints like when should ppl in vegitative states/comas etc have the right to pull the plug and if its right to make them suffer even longer by keeping them alive when they're really dead.and yeah i'd go into details but i dont feel like it, i'm almost done w/ the book though so yay me, im readying haha.
i need to& want to get out cuz being at home is pissing me off, its making the unhappy side of meli come out and im liek grrr half the time. but of course when everyone talks to me all i have to do is " =D" and everythings ok lol well thats what they think . i hate making scenes, i really do.
so yeah,
i'm thinking i should call my grandma up cuz shes my only way outta this prison a.k.a. my house. yeah she called me a whore bag and that im a slut and that im doing bad things behind my moms back but ok, im gonna let her talk all the crap she wants so she can vent and so she can sayin that i'm gonna kill her by giving her a heart attack or something. i don't care how much she wants to insult me cuz all that matters is that i know the things i do and dont do and its not anyones business but my own. i just want to get outta my house!!
man oh man is this gonna be one long week. i need an icee or something to chill.
well besides that i've become addicted to this group that i go to on myspace, its just so interesting to see what ppl have to say about our government and different point of veiws. i liked these 2 videos posted as a bulletin about fascism and this other one, forgot what its called but w/e its cool you guys should check it out if you wanna, just click on the picture;
lol did i mention how bad i wanted to get out, yeah i think you get the point xD
like, i've been reading, doing exercise, eatingt ice cream [i just ran out T__T] playing KH2, being online, listening to music, staring at the wall, watching tv for once and walking around my block. all in one day, its killing me, especially since i'm having so much time to think about lots of things that get my confused. You think your sad when you're just plain bored and alone sometimes and its pretty wack. like i feel down when i have no reason to, and sometimes i feel unloved when i have a "BF" who's never really there for me anyways..argh i dunno anymore.
and then theres my homies that go through all this stuff, whats it called.. oh yeah, life.stupid contradictions.
i'm reading a really good book right now. its called death and dying. It's about the opposing veiwpoints like when should ppl in vegitative states/comas etc have the right to pull the plug and if its right to make them suffer even longer by keeping them alive when they're really dead.and yeah i'd go into details but i dont feel like it, i'm almost done w/ the book though so yay me, im readying haha.
i need to& want to get out cuz being at home is pissing me off, its making the unhappy side of meli come out and im liek grrr half the time. but of course when everyone talks to me all i have to do is " =D" and everythings ok lol well thats what they think . i hate making scenes, i really do.
so yeah,
i'm thinking i should call my grandma up cuz shes my only way outta this prison a.k.a. my house. yeah she called me a whore bag and that im a slut and that im doing bad things behind my moms back but ok, im gonna let her talk all the crap she wants so she can vent and so she can sayin that i'm gonna kill her by giving her a heart attack or something. i don't care how much she wants to insult me cuz all that matters is that i know the things i do and dont do and its not anyones business but my own. i just want to get outta my house!!
man oh man is this gonna be one long week. i need an icee or something to chill.
well besides that i've become addicted to this group that i go to on myspace, its just so interesting to see what ppl have to say about our government and different point of veiws. i liked these 2 videos posted as a bulletin about fascism and this other one, forgot what its called but w/e its cool you guys should check it out if you wanna, just click on the picture;
lol did i mention how bad i wanted to get out, yeah i think you get the point xD