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[myday2day]

Well, I know I dont seem like a person that has alot of stress or issues but to be completly honest with you lately things have gotton bad, I held it all in and covered it up I didnt want to bother people with my problems. Last night it got to the part where It all came out at once! It felt like I was under more than I could handle and when it came out in emotion and anger it all escaped through one opening that wasnt big enough so now its going to scare, and there are parts of me that will never be the same! Wow maybe that was a bad way to explain it but w/e. The fact is I told my mom and my stepdad alot of things that they didnt know about, but they should have been brought to there attention about 3 and a half years ago! The cool thing is though they were more understanding than I have ever seen them and they wanted to do all they could to help me work through some things! The kind of problems Im dealing with are not drugs and alcohol related at all, its all emotional and stress and self confidence that Ive been dealing with. I dont have a relationship with my stepdad and we argue all the time. I pretty much explained to him last night that I was tired of dealing with him because of the way he handles things! Well, it really isnt any of your buisness what I told him. The fact is him and I are all going to counceling sessions that are going to start soon! We are finally going to get some things out in the open and give each other more of a chance! Im looking forward to this and I hope you will all pray that the sessions will benefit us! I really exploded last night and I yelled and cried to my parents for 4 hours! Ive finally decided not to live with all this stress anymore I cant balance it on my own! I have alot to be thankfull for and many good things in my life! Its time for me to take atvantage of the blessings God has given me and show the world That I really am the guy that Ive covered up with! But this time all the stress is gone, Im not hiding the problems deep inside any longer!

To all who read this
To my parents
To my Brothers
To my friends in Maine
To God

I Love you very much!

Adam S. (MOOKY)