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Does anyone ever feel, for lack of a better word, depressed for apparently no reason? Today, was my turn to feel this way. I don't know what happened in order for me to feel this way, I was in gym thinking about how hungry I was and listening to Paul and Julia talk about how awesome Vlad singing "Mr. Vain" on some karaoke site. All of a sudden, I felt like getting away from everybody. I was staring up at the same spot for a long time without even realizing it. I walked away from everybody and started working out. Paul followed me and stayed with me the rest of the period. He wasn't being pushy, or trying to get me back to the group. He was just as sweet and kind to me as usual, whispering how much he cares and if he can do anything to help because he hates seeing me like this. Usually, I'd feel bad that I am worrying him, but today, I felt so...empty, careless, and alone in a crowd, which I didn't mind at all. Walking out of school, I saw a dead cat. At first, I didn't know if it was dead or not, even with it's legs stuck together and being motionless. I stomped the ground and one of it's eyes opened. I tapped my sneaker against it's leg and it didn't move, it's glassy eye staring me down. It looked just like my cat, except not fat and dead. I also almost got hit by a Fed Ex truck, and didn't even wish it did hit me like I usually do. Eating didn't help either, what the hell is wrong with me today?