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you know, i hardly care about how you look at me as a friend.
maeb, i dont know, you think that i'd only care if i was 'free'.
one leads to another leads to another leads to another.
haha. feel like ive lost many!
but owells.
i mean, friends come and go right?
im enjoying myself now, its not so bad making friends.
recital's been really fun.
neve felt so family in such a long time. ((:
eve since training started, ive pretty much switched to srv1.
have this feeling that im used to it alrdy.. wondering how im gonna switch my mode back when recital's over.
but feels like a good break from meeting people i used to bump into on a sunday.
stinks how sometimes i have to pretend to be nice to certain people, even when i dont feel like. hmmm...
somehow making more friends outside church has gotten me into a new environment,
and somehow i feel like my life's alot more purposeful now as compared to before.
think i ve been hanging out with too many christians, till i feel like there is none to really impact. (talking about my circle of friends)
and i guess, like theyve pretty much got someone else to lend a shoulder to other than me. haha!
not that i dont appreciate, but i guess i kinda like to feel like someone would need my help in some way or another.. so with how i am now, i just feel more into my purpose rather than comfortzone level.
anyways,
this year has been so extreme for me.
embarking on decisions i feel is so absurb and quite imposible.
honestly,
half the time i feel extremely upset to move away from the very few friends i hold dearest,
but i guess, maeb its the only way i can make new friends to encourage. :)
a blessing in disguise.
just hope that im making the right choice.