LOCK AND LOAD!
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Well...I stayed up all night only to be woken at 10:23AM to get ready for lunch. -_- My dad said something about Westlake..............I don't know why the ..we have to go all the way to Westlake. A longer, more awkward drive home? That must be it. I think maybe I should write down their expectations and their end of this "deal". As Ryan put it, it's utterly pathetic that they have to make a deal with me just to talk with me. I added utterly. It's a cool word.
My parents are just pathetic. Of course, they are making an attempt here. But its sad and useless. They're not willing to change for me at all. They're letting me win a vital battle for my fucking education, yes, but the DEAL is that if I go and GET this education, I have to do yadayada, yada, this and this, and be their perfect Holiness church girl. I have to bargain with them for my future. They're so stupid.
And I'm busy being a brat right now. Taking a long time to get ready. And when I come out with nicely combed hair, clean jeans and a bright little Aeropostale' Hoodie, they're going to complain that I'm not wearing a skirt and why do I always look like trash?
Everything's trash. My art is trash my music is trash my best friends are trash; I am trash-that's what it tells me. If everything I'm comprised of is trash, then I must be too. I wish I could just stab them in their ears with a fork and make them fucking listen to me. Make some kind of tunnel from their ears to their hearts, I mean they must care if they're TRYING right?? or does it just look good? naw. They love me, they're just.....antiquated and ..TWISTED......I really love it when they start telling me about myself. As if they've ever sat down and talked to me, about me in the past 17 years. This is the worst time to start.
I'm being summoned.
Booooooo
Free food though. Stuff your face, right? haha. Maybe we're going to that Crazy Stirfry. I'd be happy...get my hands on some of that peanut sauce...............I wouldn't hear them for like four hours.......... yyuuuuummmmm :)