COLD.
Tonight I'm doing work.
Gonna start a load of laundry in a few minutes, almost done with two essays...and I may even work on some math. I just looked up a load of information on SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) and I really think that might be a good explanation for my mood swings and just...low times. Don't really feel like going into details about why or how I know I match the profile, yada yada. You look it up.
But I was reading about the treaments for it, and the most effective is said to be light therapy-b/c SAD is relatively a deprivation of light, because the days are shorter, colder and more time is spent inside and in the dark. I love summer....winter..I just..yeah. I hate waking up early in the dark, I hate waking up at all. I don't really have such a huge problem with it during the summer or spring, just when its pitch black at 6am I don't function at all.
Tanning is actually recommended to an extent b/c of the UV rays its called skin illumination treatment, but of course physicians warn about skin cancer-and also over exposure to UV rays during the winter months I think it creates..varacose veins on the back of the knees-or some other problem on the backs of the knees b/c of the body's internal time clock, I guess those cells back yonder just aren't accustomed to...........working? during that time?
I have no clue. It didn't go into adamant detail. I'd love to go tanning. But I don't have money, time, or a ride.
But perhaps.....if I have some extra money after Christmas, I think I will. I remember even during the summer and late spring, I loved it just because its so relaxing for me to just...have to sit down for 10-20 minutes at a time, lie perfectly still and...relax. It's great. And its warm and I'm always freezing, and tanning lotion smells delicious. I don't think my parents would take me seriously at all if I told them I had SAD. They'd tell me to get right with God. -_-
SO. I'll just skip that.
Gonna finish up these essays, start some wash...call Joe....put some gloves on...I think I need to make room for the little heater in here. I'm dying.