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i understand ur angry and think this was intentional.. and being u wont talk to me about it. ill explain myself here hopeing u read it.. well it was a last minute decision and i just called them and made them come back to me and u were already out so i didnt even bother cuz u were gettin drunk and it wasnt positive if we had any thing.. so i just didnt call.. and i know it was shitty and that u think we were up to some shit but it was really just a last minute decision . im sorry i didnt wanna like take u away frum the plans u had made and just went with what came at me.. and i was just cought up in the moment.. so i called them 2 to come back here.. and then we went with everything from there.. its to late to change everything now.. i understand that ur mad at me..cuz it was shitty of me not to call u.. but the only thing that i could do now is say im sorry.. and i feel like the piece of shit asshole that i am.. so dont worry i got what i deserved.. cuz i dont know if i lost a friendship.. but i deff. fucked it up..cuz im good at doing things like that.. but life is not going to go back to the day for me to make differnt decisions.. so all thats left to say is im sorry.. im shitty. and oh.. u are not being replaced by anyone EVER.. there will never be another you. you are a part of mylife. and frum past experience .. i think u mean more to me than i do to you..especially from things you said right in front me of that made me feel for a second that i never ment anything at all to you and i was only there for a reason yet to be figured out.and when u say things like "im not cool enough" thats just stupid. its not about being cool.. its not about anything.. its just the fact that u were already out. iam sorry that u feel the way you do.. but im just trying to make this better. i dont know what else to say but i have to go now.