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im going to tell u an intersting story about my life.. cuz i have nothing else to do at the moment.. it will be random.. and i will just tell stories of whats on my mind.. i am in much pain right now.. physically and mentally.. i just want to know what my senior project will be.. and im at a point where i really want a boyfriend.. but i dont at the same time.. its werid.. i think i always get like this when school starts..it basicly sucks.. cuz i get lonely or something.. and then i start to get down on myself cuz i cant find anyone that acually wants to date more then my vagina cuz most guys are emotionless pigs that think with nothing but their dicks.. and its just shitty by now..i cant get away frum perverts.. and this stupid kid.. who even knows why i like him.. but for sum reason i do.. and hes like the biggest werido that lives.. but i like him.. but hes just another one.. and only comes around when its convient for him.. but other then that wont give me the time of day.. or even think to call me just to see whats goin on.. or like.. if i wanna hang out.. he can only come around at night time when hes done doing everything hes needs to do. and no ones gonna know where he is..but he tells me he likes me.. then hes really mean to me but then hes really nice to me.. i guess i just like mental games. cuz thats really all ive dealt with in most of my relationships and maybe that effects me.. i need a senior project bad.. like take right now for instance.. he called me like.. 30 mins ago and was like im gonna stop by.. ill call yah when im on my way.. nope.. doesnt bother.. just likes to tell me these things to get my hopes up or something that maybe im gonna have some company.. theres so many fish in the sea.. i dont understnad why i catch the WERIDEST ones.. and its not even like this kid and i are in anyform of a relationship.. grrrr.. i dont know why i do these things to myself.. i pretty much just want someone.. to like me..and not just to get some ass out of the situation.. and thats really hard to find these days.. cuz most guys.. thats all they are looking for!.. except of course the awesomeones that i choose to look past.. and no realize they are there so i dont even give them a chance.. and cuz im with my friends always so i woudlnt be able to hang out with them anyway cuz my friends dont like to hang out with them..and i just like to look past what could be.. but whatever.. thats besides the fact.. this kid is so close.. yet so far away.. i hate it.. i hate being lonely.. i hate being lied to.. i just want someone that will cuddle with me.. and actually enjoy themselves.. but thats like asking to win the lottery.. chances are 1-9874509375093247591749283748971625786245 Yep... peace out.. im done here.. cuz im gonna go sleep