Wow, time for an update.
Wow, I haven't updated this thing in a long time. So let’s see...a lot has changed.
That dream house fell through. The house inspection didn't go well. It turns out the foundation was shotty. So after a small heartbreak I moved on. It seemed like the perfect house would never come along, but it turns out patience really paid off in the end. I found my perfect house. It is most certainly a fixer-upper, but I love it dearly. I will be sure to post some videos of it if I can figure out how...
I had the house inspection already so I figure its ok for me to get attached at this point. I hope. Anyway, closing is July 25th. I have a TON of wallpaper to take down, so it's a good thing I have three weeks until school starts to get that done. I feel like it's going to be an adventure. I'm feeling very very optimistic about it.
So, in other facets of my life, things haven't been the greatest. I went to Florida as soon as school let out to visit my grandma. I found out in march that my gram had cancer, we knew it was pretty serious because it was a very fast moving kind of cancer. It had spread from her esophagus to her stomach, liver, and kidneys. And it wasn't there in January. So we all knew that time was limited, which was why we all rushed down to see her as soon as possible, but I wasn't expecting to stay quite as long as I did...
When I got to florida gram was in assisted care, my mom just couldn't keep up with taking care of her anymore, so they took her in at the "lodge." My gram lived in this retirement community where you had to move in before you got sick, and you could live in an apartment or a little house or whatever, but once you got sick they would take care of you at the "lodge." So my gram got to that point, which really wasn't what I was expecting when I showed up.
So my mom and dad needed a little breather so they left my brothers and I to stay with gram while they took a day trip down to miami to visit my aunt rainy. They left wednesday night and woke up to a call thursday morning from the nurse at the lodge telling my mom to come back right away, that gram wasn't doing well at all. So dad called us at gram's apartment and woke us up telling us to get there as soon as we could and they would be there by noon. Jon and I sat with gram from 7am to noon while she gasped for breath. It was the most horrible and...difficult 5 hours of my life. Gram made it through that day, and we got hospice to come in and keep a nurse with her 24hrs a day. Since I was done with school and hadn't found a summer job, I stayed with my mom and tad while jon and dad went home. I got there tuesday June 3rd, and gram held on until Wednesday June 11th. We knew she was close, she wasn't conscious at all the day before. The nurse warned us that it was close, so when we went to bed that night I couldn't sleep. I just kept reading, hoping I would get tired enough to drift off, but then I finished my book. So at 2am when the phone rang and my mom shot up in bed saying "oh no!" I was still wide awake, staring at the ceiling. The nurse said her breathing had drastically changed that we should come right away. We threw on clothes and ran over, but we were too late, she was already gone. It was...I don't even know how to describe the experience of seeing her laying there. Tad was still down at the library on the computer, and the library was a cell phone black hole, so I volunteered to go get him. I took off my flip flops and just started running, I ran the mile to the library and I wished I had longer to run, so I took another loop around, by the time I got to the library I was completely out of breath and managed to scare the crap out of tad. It was ok, I stayed for another week after that, for the wake, funeral and memorial service. It was a long 15 days, it really felt more like a month, but we all made it through ok, more or less.
Actually, there was kind of a bright side to it all. I was able to keep alot of my grandma's things. No one else needed some of her things, like dishes or furniture, or anything, but I did because of the new house. It is kind of cool that I have some things that will always make me think of gram, like her dishes. It makes me happy.
So anyway, that is what my life has been like lately. It's interesting, kind of depressing and really uncharted territory for me.
On a totally different note, my little laura is getting married soooo soon!! She and Genc just got their first apartment, bought all their furniture, got two kitties!!, and had their wedding shower. It's so sweet. I'm so happy for her, she's radiant lately. I do have to say, for some reason your best friend getting married is like an open invitation for people to ask you when you're getting married. Geeze, I could seriously punch the next person who asks me when I'm getting married. Ooh, but I am really excited about this particular bride's maid dress, of course it could be because I picked it out, but you know.
Alright, I've rambled enough for one day.