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Hi, its been so long.......we have lots of catching up to do.
heres a quick synopsis: see i have some things going through my head. i look back at some people i placed on pedestals, and who i admired and thought of as life changing. i think maybe i gave them too much power, too much credit, and what if they really didnt hold all the answers they lead me to beleive they held. i still find her to be my soul sister, hehe.
i got a lil pissy tonight thinking i might be fucked with. i guess im pretty afraid of people not being open enough with me, because then like the difficulties get layered down when they should get resolved. Christy had mentioned some of these feelings and i sense impatience and mistrust in humanity because of her hurt. See that kinda rubbed off on me...and i got the vibes that things should be more perfect from the ones who i love and who 'love' me. i guess i do hope for a lot....at the same time i know that if those loves/friends dont line up in certain ways or nething its okay, because i have a huge love for people and i would go through a lot to maintain an equilibrium between others and myself, and our emotions.
today was awesome, we climbed a dollar tree$ and Amanda ended up gettin cody Crickets for V-Day, we got all kinds of sweet decorations for today. we then proceeded to go fly Kites in the park. i was spongebob, lanna was spidey, amanda was fantastic four, w00t. i had fun runnin around like a retard. we had some good laughs. spongebob is stuck in a tree. went to pet kingdom, cici's pizza....
Lanna got me the sweetest necklace ever saying 'because your mine: i walk the line'..its pretty special. We all liked our lil gifts. and today i hope she likes mine. im officially dating her ; ) This is kinda long, but i guess its just cool to type away. I really do need sleep cus Cody and Lanna have suprises for us tommarow, we will be blindfolded! and hopefully treated with compassion, No killing. j/k i love you all and this is me saying goodnight.
-Moe
heres a quick synopsis: see i have some things going through my head. i look back at some people i placed on pedestals, and who i admired and thought of as life changing. i think maybe i gave them too much power, too much credit, and what if they really didnt hold all the answers they lead me to beleive they held. i still find her to be my soul sister, hehe.
i got a lil pissy tonight thinking i might be fucked with. i guess im pretty afraid of people not being open enough with me, because then like the difficulties get layered down when they should get resolved. Christy had mentioned some of these feelings and i sense impatience and mistrust in humanity because of her hurt. See that kinda rubbed off on me...and i got the vibes that things should be more perfect from the ones who i love and who 'love' me. i guess i do hope for a lot....at the same time i know that if those loves/friends dont line up in certain ways or nething its okay, because i have a huge love for people and i would go through a lot to maintain an equilibrium between others and myself, and our emotions.
today was awesome, we climbed a dollar tree$ and Amanda ended up gettin cody Crickets for V-Day, we got all kinds of sweet decorations for today. we then proceeded to go fly Kites in the park. i was spongebob, lanna was spidey, amanda was fantastic four, w00t. i had fun runnin around like a retard. we had some good laughs. spongebob is stuck in a tree. went to pet kingdom, cici's pizza....
Lanna got me the sweetest necklace ever saying 'because your mine: i walk the line'..its pretty special. We all liked our lil gifts. and today i hope she likes mine. im officially dating her ; ) This is kinda long, but i guess its just cool to type away. I really do need sleep cus Cody and Lanna have suprises for us tommarow, we will be blindfolded! and hopefully treated with compassion, No killing. j/k i love you all and this is me saying goodnight.
-Moe