I've been thinking...
(i know, no good usually comes of that) but life has been pushing me in new directions lately, and i guess thinking comes of that.
had a long philosophical conversation last night. mostly about free will, 'fate', and the choices we 'make'. and it left me curious. i don't know how many of the choices i've made have actually been choices themselves. i mean sure, i didn't 'have' to make any of the choices i've made in the past, but at the same time, isn't every choice i make in some sense governed by the choices i've made before it? it boils down to this: i'm i really capable of making a single spontaneous action at any point in my existence? If i choose to jump randomly into the air, what begins the chemical reaction in my brain that triggers the nerves that triggers the muscles to contract, therefore causing me to jump? i guess i just don't know. these goddamn first causes have me baffled.
$40000 and 4 years of my life spent studying philosophy, and i still don't have an answer.
and the outcomes of either 'yes' or 'no' are terrifying.
but i'm not scrrd.
except of the dreams i've been having. the other night i dreamt that i was halfway through eating a massive ham sandwich. i woke up pissed off and sick to my stomach. then last night, i dreamt that i was cleaning up my room and there were dozens of empty glasses everywhere. hmm...
emily comes back into town on friday. i'm super stoked. there's going to be a bit of a going away party on the night of the 20th. everyone must come as i'll be leaving on the 25th.
life has been good; and that is that.
had a long philosophical conversation last night. mostly about free will, 'fate', and the choices we 'make'. and it left me curious. i don't know how many of the choices i've made have actually been choices themselves. i mean sure, i didn't 'have' to make any of the choices i've made in the past, but at the same time, isn't every choice i make in some sense governed by the choices i've made before it? it boils down to this: i'm i really capable of making a single spontaneous action at any point in my existence? If i choose to jump randomly into the air, what begins the chemical reaction in my brain that triggers the nerves that triggers the muscles to contract, therefore causing me to jump? i guess i just don't know. these goddamn first causes have me baffled.
$40000 and 4 years of my life spent studying philosophy, and i still don't have an answer.
and the outcomes of either 'yes' or 'no' are terrifying.
but i'm not scrrd.
except of the dreams i've been having. the other night i dreamt that i was halfway through eating a massive ham sandwich. i woke up pissed off and sick to my stomach. then last night, i dreamt that i was cleaning up my room and there were dozens of empty glasses everywhere. hmm...
emily comes back into town on friday. i'm super stoked. there's going to be a bit of a going away party on the night of the 20th. everyone must come as i'll be leaving on the 25th.
life has been good; and that is that.