JUST WATCH ME BURN

[mychemicalromeo]

as i crash i burn
if i could breathe i would i push and push
too much too soon
to fall is madness yet i seem to have lost my brakes
to weep is foolish yet the dam has been all but destroyed

the abyss is wide and into it i plunged face first
letting go of all sense, caution and reason.

do i want to know
is this something i really have to know
would these lies be too strong to allow myself to not break?
do i truly believe that inner voice?
the one that tells me what my soul does not want to believe is true?

do i not have a murderous intent?
some form of release
to pause this anguished suffocation
of unreasonable doubt
and bastardly dreams resurrected

must it be allowed to breathe
must i be allowed to know and feel
to be the instigator of this pain
and yet it is not me

tense and relaxed
my thread will soon break from this force
tugging this way and that way
but all the while holding on desperately to one end of my soul

anxiety rules and riddles my being
now that i am sober and not stoned most often
its not the only thing i forgot
although
some things will always be remembered

some of those would be things said
some only things purportedly done
some would be all in my head
but all of them lead me to coming undone

if i let it will be
.
.
that is all i have to go on

ALWAYS WILL NEVER BE LONG ENOUGH