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so, christmas vaca is almost over. Kinda sad. I dont want to go back to pretending im happy. I know that thats what im going to have to do around those people. I like being at home. and being an insomniac and being alone. I like being alone alot. Im total emo child right now i know but yeah.
everything fell apart. you know? the puzzle started to get put together after erik and its .. yeah again. I do it to myself though. I just need to stop. I really need to get on college shit. cus im going now. i have nothing to stay for. I just want to go away.
hopefully ill still get to go to montana.
so, now, the only things i need to think about is not hurting myself and keeping my grades up. woot im so excited. And to all of my friends who i see on a daily basis, please stop involving me in your fucking drama. im gonna fucking blow i dont wanna fucking deal with the stupid freshman shit.
fuck. so yeah. vaca sucked. besides the whole fact of no school and stuff, ive been sick.. and of course stuck in a shitload of drama. I cant fucking believe someone i thought i trusted could say such things about me. and then james... I dont fuckng know. but that boy needs to fucking get on so i can talk to him.. cus things need to be figured out. god this shit is fucking retarded.
i dont know. I was gonna go through with it too ... but oh well. i guess when your fucking drunk you cant hide your true feelings.
so yeah alot of drama in only a few days, but the lack of sleep and the whole being sicker than a damn dog makes it seem like a long ass time. yeah
and ive been sick wootage. i love being bed ridden. yay.
i and oh god i just fucking love missing erik. i dont even know why i miss him. i think I just miss the feeling.. you know? im starting to think im never going to feel that agian. but yeah so.
and i have lost trust in human kind. yeah. every single fucking person i know is fucking two faced.. so.. just cus i talk to you doesnt mean i trust you. it just means i need someone to talk to. yeah. i trusted her, and i trusted him. hahaha yeah no.
so yeah. and im upset cus roberts still mad at me.. i hope he'll come see me tomarrow. I love him and I miss the fuck out of him. so yeah that sucks too, and he has to leave soon and all the boys leave next month.. except bowers who like leaves in 3 weeks. fuck. it seemed like a long time for some reason last month. now it seems like tomarrow.
I hope robert forgives me.
I dunno. so yeah. IM fucking fantastic yeah. ne ways. this is my update. yeah. I hope everyone had a great xmas and new years!!!!
everything fell apart. you know? the puzzle started to get put together after erik and its .. yeah again. I do it to myself though. I just need to stop. I really need to get on college shit. cus im going now. i have nothing to stay for. I just want to go away.
hopefully ill still get to go to montana.
so, now, the only things i need to think about is not hurting myself and keeping my grades up. woot im so excited. And to all of my friends who i see on a daily basis, please stop involving me in your fucking drama. im gonna fucking blow i dont wanna fucking deal with the stupid freshman shit.
fuck. so yeah. vaca sucked. besides the whole fact of no school and stuff, ive been sick.. and of course stuck in a shitload of drama. I cant fucking believe someone i thought i trusted could say such things about me. and then james... I dont fuckng know. but that boy needs to fucking get on so i can talk to him.. cus things need to be figured out. god this shit is fucking retarded.
i dont know. I was gonna go through with it too ... but oh well. i guess when your fucking drunk you cant hide your true feelings.
so yeah alot of drama in only a few days, but the lack of sleep and the whole being sicker than a damn dog makes it seem like a long ass time. yeah
and ive been sick wootage. i love being bed ridden. yay.
i and oh god i just fucking love missing erik. i dont even know why i miss him. i think I just miss the feeling.. you know? im starting to think im never going to feel that agian. but yeah so.
and i have lost trust in human kind. yeah. every single fucking person i know is fucking two faced.. so.. just cus i talk to you doesnt mean i trust you. it just means i need someone to talk to. yeah. i trusted her, and i trusted him. hahaha yeah no.
so yeah. and im upset cus roberts still mad at me.. i hope he'll come see me tomarrow. I love him and I miss the fuck out of him. so yeah that sucks too, and he has to leave soon and all the boys leave next month.. except bowers who like leaves in 3 weeks. fuck. it seemed like a long time for some reason last month. now it seems like tomarrow.
I hope robert forgives me.
I dunno. so yeah. IM fucking fantastic yeah. ne ways. this is my update. yeah. I hope everyone had a great xmas and new years!!!!