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It hurts when your not liked back. I'll put it out there right here and now. I'll be 21 on Saturday and I've never had a boyfriend. Yes, "Never Been Kissed" is my life story, aren't I cliched? So, it hurts when I end up really liking someone and knowing that they will never like me back. I always fall for guys who aren't in my league. Their either pretty guys who wouldn't give someone like me the time of day or guys with something "off" about them. Like last year, I ended up having the biggest crush on, let's call it, an extremely religious person. Why? Out of all the guys why him? I ended up switching schools. I moved across country and started anew. I found my latest "crush." Ew, crush, I swore I would never use that third grade word. I like this guy and I've only talked to him twice. How can I like someone alot when I don't even know them? Yes, it's strange. I find him interesting, almost captivating. He's a really good writer (which in my book is hot), he's shy, seems really smart, and sweet. He seems like he could be on my level. The catch is he's almost two years younger than me. See, there's always something with these guys I'm drawn to. But, when it comes to me and guys, no one ever finds me attractive. It depresses me. What do I lack that guys don't like? I'm no supermodel (not one BY far), but I'm not ugly. I feel so negelected for attention that I even wish that I could make ANY guy turn his head and say wow. What's wrong with me? Why do other girls get the guys? When will it be my turn? When will someone notice me for a change? I wouldn't hold your breath.